okay. i was officially sick.
it all started the day before yesterday, when i woke up from 6 am with a severe tummy ache. i thought i had just slept too soon after eating suhur(eating before dawn for ramadhan practice). so i shrugged it off and tried to go back to sleep. "tried" is really the word because my trying got me nowhere, and my tummy ache just getting more severe. to cut a long story short, too many vomit spells and (excuse me for what i am about to type, please don't say "eew", "yuuck", or "kadiri", because we are all humans and it is but normal - haha!) poo-ing spells later. i found my self taking a glass of water to atleast rehydrate myself and took some medicine(yes, i gotta cut off my fasting). through the day i was doing the whole cycle. as a result, the pain in my stomach goes away dramatically but ow i am as weak as weak can be.
asking help? nope! they're just gonna suggest me to go hospital. and i really don't like the idea. i gotta help my self up and get back to normal before things are gonna get worst. just no hospital. end of talk. good thing i have strong belief in my meds(from philippines), Alhamdulillah! i got better.
now that i can able to sit upright, not being disturb by the feeling of "calls of nature", i gotta write about this because of the fact that this was my very first experience in my whole entire life in such serious severe stomach pain featuring vomits. vomits. thinking of those disgusting throw ups - hoping it won't happen again. ever!
i got nothing to do, i'm weak. i'm bored. i can't call my sister :( i got back pain also for laying back in an improper way not knowing i'm falling asleep for minutes without moving.
but between those awakened eyes (half size to be exact) and an ears to atleast grasp some sound, i decided to do some usual habits. my all time favorite, watching nouman ali khan's videos and tried to reflect and have fun to his personal advices(which is truly a reality). this is actually the main purpose of this blog (for some people who doesn't know him yet - youtube him. i don't think if that's the right term, but he's got good lectures uploaded in youtube).
here are some points i have learned from his lecture entitled "shame". (imagine a zombie-like on her laptop, taking[typing]notes). from part 1 until part 11 and every video file have approximately 30 mins to play.
so, here it goes:
1. shame(haya) is not a dominant subject in the Quran. rather, al-fakhsha (shamelessness)
2. clothing is part of revelation (it's a divine gift). clothes covers our shame.
3. shaitan wants for humans is to get humiliated.
4. shaitan whispers over and over and over and over again(it's waswasa in arabic) until he gets us.
5. shaitan's ultimate purpose was to get clothes remove from our parents(adam and eve).
6. nudity is called ugliness in the Quran.
7. something has corrupted in our nature if we are tempted with nudity(because Allah created adam and eve and clothed them, and that's our nature).
8. christian perception is that eve tempted adam. the Quran teach us they're both being done waswas at the same time so she is not to blame.
9. adam and eve are two of the most beautiful human beings because all beauty of humanity is actually genetically by product of adam and eve.
10. dressing nicely is part of appreciating Allah's gift.
11. the ultimate outfit we can wear is the clothing of protecting one's self from Allah's disobedience.
12. taking full attention during prayer(salat) is dressing-well. that's being conscious of The One that's gonna be looking at you during prayer.
13. don't do anything too much (cliche), it could lead to shamelessness.
14. Allah made us when we don't know ourselves. so intentions are transparent to Him.
15. we can do wonderful things to internet but it has great great harm to humanity too(haram stuffs).
16. when you don't know how to control your thoughts it could lead to shamelessness.
17. zina of the eyes will kill us spiritually. we will not be able to pray properly, there will be no baraka in our life.
18. eyes where not given to us to disobey Allah.
19. listening to/saying filthy words conjures filthy in minds.
20. anything that is ugly behaviors is consider fakhsha.
21. Allah says: "if you loose your shame, every other shame is easy"
22. something is missing in our prayer if we are not watching over our gazes(the use of our eyes inappropriately).
23. there's no such thing a bad time to remember Allah. it's a free schedule.
24. shamelessness can be a form of anything, so long as your common sense says it leads to shamelessness/evil.
25. its practically impossible to seek 4 witness in an adultery action. wisdom: Allah does not want these sorts of cases to become public conversations.
26. there are people that well-educated and everything else but when it comes to decency they're as jahil as a monkey
27. if you don't have work ethics then you can't talk about marriage(for males)
28. in islam, we don't judge people, we judge action. what you and i do is wrong.
29. hallumma and ta'3la means "come on" and "come on up".
30. ...anything short of the best to your parents is haram. (tafseer, Al-'An'am: 151)
31. ...don't go NEAR (any form of) shamelessness (translation, Al-'An'am: 151)
32. murder and zina are equal crimes before Allah. because it's both kind of killing body(murder) and soul(zina).
33. the christians think that intimacy and love is against spiritually so they create monasticism.
34. whatever Allah has is better, and is gonna lasts longer. these are thoughts of the people who truly believe when they refuse temptations.
35. everything starts out innocence before you gets to shamelessness.
36. free times shouldn't be used in useless activities. instead find things that make your self a better person.
37. overload courses during college. be buried under work. free times destroy young men. shaitan strikes there.
38. having a job, having a tough life, and load work a day will save your life. don't just seat around.
39. start fresh (forget everything from temptations after realizing the wrong deeds) for real tawba.
40. youth are impulsive(not thinking through things). in islamic perspective, youth is where the first time they will truly have to control themselves.
41. wisdom is not looking at what is happening right now, it's looking at the consequences of one's decision.
42. just because you have knowledge, it doesn't mean you are smart. and wisdom is something else.
43. funny(practical and kinda effective) advices from nouman to young guys who wants to stay away from fitna: "grow an ugly beard"(and he thumbs it up. hilarious!:D)
and by the way, i think this is my most favorate blog post i had so far. looking at the number lists i had put into writing, oh man! i love this talk. i love nouman, may Allah preserve him and his family.
so there. the end. i can write more and more things i've heard and listen to (not noticing it was this long) and i think this post is long enough. i am officially not sick anymore. and now after clicking the publish button, i might get sick again. hope not. but hey, at least i did something productive(reminders). hope you'll get something from reading and i don't mind if you share this to others too. talk about it and inshaAllah we'll all get the reward. peace!
#lifelessonlearn
yours,
JS
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