coffee talk | am i afraid to have a relationship?

this is a question most of them asked(me). because in this generation, having a relationship is what makes you an experienced personality? might be true. but what is not so good at it is the lack of protocol and losing one's self. for most of what i had observed.

i guess i'm just not a typical youth, and so my friends are. from previous to presents. for where i am right now makes me realize that i lived at two different worlds.

it was so different that i thought having a boyfriend/girlfriend is just a matter of looking for a spouse afterwards along the relationship. wrong! as you age, you learn. it's apparently not really what i believed in. the idea of being valued by someone, having being cared tenderly by someone and do the whole thing of you-and-me-together is what every curious boy/girl wanting to have. or experience at least. it's fun though accordingly, kills some boredom. and don't be too serious at a relationship. if you don't want to end it too soon.

happenings are so unpredictable. but "end" is a sure thing. i believe in consequence in whatever we do. as much i had observe people around me getting happy(for some short time), getting hurt, getting lost. this may not applied to everyone but yes, i'm afraid it could happen to me, too.

they said "don't believe in what men says, believe in what they do". on some level, we tend to adore a person, some we develop feelings. but we certainly don't want to hookup such as hangout, dating and whatnot. liking a person is normal for a normal human being. but acting upon it. DON'T. CASUAL is sexy, CARING is creepy(read it somewhere). but it sank-in because it resonates what's actually happening around us.

i do respect people who give it a try and went on a relationship. it's bravery. knowing that love out of uncertainty will only lead to nothing but breakage and waste of time.

but again, as a normal human being, there's nothing wrong in being afraid. we're all human. most of us want to have that perfect moment at a perfect time. it's always about choice. and i choose not to abuse my heart. because at the end, this heart doesn't really belong to us.

we appreciate love and affection in so many ways, but most of it is worldly. my Father once told me, don't waste time loving at things that doesn't really matter. because once your heart stops beating, it stops beating. that's it. and there's nothing you can do about it.

and as i write this blog. the fear was totally my definition on having a relationship before marriage.
fear in so many aspects. to parents, to Allah, to losing self, to breaking something that doesn't really belong to us. and that is the heart.

and all this thoughts, equals my brain-working, equals my tummy starving. i enjoy sharing this thoughts anyway. wish i could have this more often. it unleashes thoughts out of pressure. it releases tension of what you fight for. let's spread love in a halal way. to parents. to family. to friends. religion.

yours,
JS

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coffee talk | short and simple

0055. almost dawn. here i am. writing a blog. reading at the same time. and the moment a blog gets you because it's just too powerful. i got to say i need to write one. whatever it is. i just have to.

well, yesterday is one of the most valuable and most important day for (us) muslims to celebrate to. it's eeeeeid. particularly eid ul fitr. yaay! got a new items to offer for this day. like, new dress aha, aha, i don't have to mention it because i know for sure you won't be interested in it. it's boring to list it out here.

one of the things that keeps a moment to last forever and never be forgotten is to take pictures or write about it. 

this year, my eid still dull. the only reason is... i'm not with my family to celebrate it with. but i will make sure that i will cheer up next time because i will spend it with them for next year, inshaAllah. 

short and simple.

yours

JS

coffee talk | be inspired. the first step

i am living alone. without family. close relatives and whatnot. so i tend to lose motivation most of the days. i'm up and down. and let's stop this because just by writing the first line made me felt sad :(

but that's not what i want to share with you all. nobody wants to be sad. unless you are a psycho-mental-bla-bla.

moving on...

so you are here because we are thinking the same thoughts. we all want to be inspired. right? right. i got your back. if we are literally talking face-to-face, and you are a girl(muslim's limit), i'll tap you'll shoulder.

Be inspired. i hope i can get my point in a very short writing. blogs, vlogs, help-self books, asking advice, what else, talking to parents, is where you can get an inspiration. and hopefully stay motivated.

what is a very good thing about being inspired is, you see things very profound. you will contemplate most on the future you. it boosts you to do something. something that might help you pick yourself up that leads to helping others. you know people who doesn't have inspiration doesn't really care of what might be the outcome of what they do. inspirations gets us up. gives us hope. make us work our butt off. yeah! (you should be yelling).

last words if you are still reading. REMEMBER. inspiration motivates us to be better ourselves. don't you wanna be a better one? (blasting end)

i hope you have an "of course" answer to that question ^_^

peace out.


yours,
JS

coffee talk | new day is a good day

everyday is a new day. and i define it a good day because i want it that way. it is not a bad day if bad thing happens. well, i call it "experience". experience to change, the next time i'll have my good day. the good news is it won't last till 24 hours. wanna bet?!

it's been a long time since i had my last blog. i've been thinking so deep on how can i make my blog more desirable to the readers. and there's a bad effect of it. thinking to write only for the sake of the other side of the screen. hoping to satisfy the readers. meet their needs. and make them happy atleast. well, that set of mind ends right now.

i've been watching vlogs these days and i found it interesting. but there are obstacles for me to start my own(screaming). and i'll probably elaborate that later on on my next coming blogs. inshaAllah.

so, i can't make vlogs(aka video logs) yey! i'm not too happy for that. and believe me if i say, i had the most gratifying not-more-than-an-hour conversation with my professor today. and this is something not everyone could get. I thank God for giving me that moment. and probably the best moment of this day.

and because of that conversation. here i am writing a blog. which i am thinking i would regularly do for my everyday basis. or at a very least 3x a week. or once. i just have to write, pal!

if you are an i.t student. you will understand that in our case, it's pretty hard to maintain a blog. specially when you want it to be more interesting... like making a tips, thoughts about something, writing an article about a subject. anything, anything that you may thought an educational to the readers. it's just too hard to make it as a priority.

well, it's a new day. and it is part of any wise man's knowledge that everything happens by the will of God. Alhamdulillah an inspiration came without, me asking it.

pretty plain blog. but anyway, i'll try to make it more creative for the next time.
i just have to make one right now. because if i don't. if i don't... i'll be drinking coffee ^_^

peace out.