coffee talk | Decision Making

i think every person you meet previously and presently affects you somehow. some people you end up loving and others, well they're just passing through. and a piece of them always stays with you, good or bad. so over time, you collect people and maybe you don't remember every single one of them but that doesn't mean they haven't affected you. for better or worse, they've change you.

“you are everyone you meet in your life”. i just love reading. random stuffs on google, book titles, and sometimes i stuck in its descriptions. then if it's interesting to me, then i guess i found a new buddy for a few days. so with this quote i've mention above, i so believe in that. every single person we meet in our life is a part of us. whether they were someone we shared our life with, they influenced us in a good way, they hurt us and made us learn a valuable lesson, they were mean and so we vowed not to be mean like them, whether the person wore something we liked, smiled and warmed our heart, made us laugh, or cry, all that, is part of us. and so how can any two people possibly be identical? never.

i'm happy, contented and committed to improving myself. i was taking my life seriously back then. terrified of what am i going to turn out doing the next phase. but then, life has been so great. it taught me how not to take things seriously. i mean, just be it. walk through it. if you have to run, then run. and then, there comes the tests, but don't stop. life will goes on and on. i've heard people trying to fix their problem in attempting to end their lives. well, that's never the solution. shame on them, they lack understanding of what life could be if only they face it. and i'm not here to preach. and it's hard to write.

"i will make the rest of my life the best of my life" this isn't just a thought for me. it is actually one of the reason i am writing this piece of blog. i want to express and share and treasure this concept of doing the best of anyone else's life. it is sort of an affirmation that life ahead is expected to be the best. i am. i do. God will always be there. the Great and He promises to provide us. Faith make all things possible. i repeat, i'm not preaching i insist even though i sound like one.

moving on. since this is a personal blog, i decide what i write.

and so, i'm still talking about decision making and i think this is the very most tough part of our lives. from small things to big. it always comes with a choice, this or that, now or later, stop or continue. so many things you have to come up with and unconsciously deciding in every small things we are encountering at least for a day to day basis. and i was actually battling this few months from a decision i had to take. and finally i have come up with the best one. see, i need to say it's the best, if not, then what is the purpose of believing in yourself? it has been rough for me, people around me would ask WHY but then they have their own life to live up with. not mine. if i let them decide for me, for what i have to do and what i have to take, then where am i standing? for whose life? i shouldn't be sane then.

letting anyone decide for you is the worst thing. we take advises, thoughts, but it should end up depending on us. i am so grateful for every little things in this life that has taught me. and for whatever reason, there's no way i could say life is unfair. NO. it is absolutely amazing. and we make it the best. and we keep improving. it's an endless experience we should penetrate. because we are who we are based on our experiences in life. nobody has ever walked on my shoes, nobody have had overcome my obstacles. i take advises, but of course, i decide for myself. it's on me. and it should be everyone else has to do too for themselves.

*wink!

Daily Blog Challenge - final thoughts

it's been 52 days i've been recording almost everything. daily activities from morning 'til evening. and i thought it is about time to put an end to it. the fact that i could keep up till this day is a big achievement to me already. i have faced the challenge. regardless of my writing skills. grammar skills and a kind of person i am. which is absolutely under the category of the ones that's not really a fan of specifying one's emotion. and i think that had made me more...  oh, i'm not good at this. so the challenge, considering its uncertain end, i supposed i have gained so much self-discipline in keeping it daily. it's hard. but with all the honesty-non-fiction stories i have made right there, it's not really that difficult to put up words and look for something that's not there. everything happen in hands. it's a no-brainer work. but discipline is what kept me writing. 

it's a challenge i, myself had to work out with. nobody is ever going to pull out such a challenge that doesn't have sure end. but i started this challenge. i didn't even put an ultimatum in it. not set. and i know why i did that. i want to see how far i can go. how many days i can get to keep up writing. even one word i thought i will write and post just to see if this crap inside me is under my control. rock on! 

"every beginning has an end"

i wish i could keep doing this. but as what my professor said in one of his lecture, you can't hold two water melon in one hand. sometimes, we do need to focus on something to attain what we should be doing. the real goal. although it seems unclear what the future holds, i still believe in the act of the process, and the reward after it. and that process would lead us to somewhere we are ordained. just do it! 

be different!

is what i have profoundly learn from this challenge. you know that moment when you really have to go to the corner and write something because you are oblige to. yes, that is the greatest challenge i had to get through every single time i needed to write. call me loner but i needed to be a hero.

"improve yourself everyday"

being better everyday in every aspect of all the activity is one hell of an obligation. a compulsory i thought every individual is committed to, willingly or unwillingly. i am getting mad! there's no way we could let a day without learning something. and i do regret days i thought i didn't do a thing. it's funny how i always thought about me being so different from the past few years ago. every time i contemplate on me trying to seek another new knowledge or skills, i felt like i know nothing. i even hate to feel the disappointment after watching somebody with my age throwing some knowledge or even worse possessed it. i'm dumb. and i guess this is what makes me a hungry person.

the more you socialize, the more you learn

back then, i was this kind of person who doesn't know how to deal with people outside the house. i am not taking any jokes, i'll even cry sometimes. secretly. fast forward a few years, i eventually started to see people around me. what they wear. what they say. and sometimes  even what they think. and i call that superpower. inside me. i became more observable at almost everything. and i'm not proud of this one. it is disturbing when all you want to do is to focus at something more relevant. however, i find it very easy for me to socialize having this unusual character. being keen and alert all the time saves me from reckless act and unnecessary activities. and the opposite is what i called having fun. 

blogging

focusing and concentrating at something separates you from everything else. one very good example is reading a book. writing blog. playing games on your phone. even the very basic one, listening to a lecture on youtube. if you want to get the best out of something, you have to focus on it. like i didn't know how i got into writing but there is this day i told myself i wanted to write. i don't know where to start or how to, but i just wanted to write. anything. something. i am not really that fan of grammar but if don't do this, i won't be able to see how far does my ability would brought me. but hey, progress is a progress. i got this far. blogging is not an easy task. somebody is going to pick on my writings. i thought of this before. i got worried. i couldn't post anything. thinking about being criticized somewhere down the road is a torture. 

to write is to read

i was frightened, nervous, and reluctant just by thinking about my writing being criticized until i've read this one blog on "how to be a writer". one word i grasped and until now it drives me on keeping the writing habit and that is what the authors said "WRITE!". that moment when my eyes hit on this word -if you want to be a writer, then "WRITE!". it's powerful and if you are reading this. i'm telling you, it worked on me.

expose yourself

i am 26 and i just started to get to know myself around 24. and i literally paused and think about the years behind me. what have i done? what was i before? how people looked at me? described me? i have no idea. i don't know what part on earth made me a person that has made me who i am right now but all i know is i just started living. and thank God for making me realize this. it's an inside urgent for me to explore who i am and do things on my own and be dedicated in anything i say or do. otherwise it wouldn't make any sense at all.

let others be inspired.

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 52 | spicy chicken soup

april 14, 2016. thursday. love this morning. i had a total different set of breakfast. this time it's a soup. a spicy chicken soup. it's being cooked by a friend who slept over most of the time. thanks to her. 

i did laundry. half of it. put it off for later and went to a friend's house. an arab friend. a bit of talk and we're back to dorm.

a friend of ours had to be sent to the hospital. not to mention about my thoughts on this particular hospital. alhamdulillah she's fine now. 

and yes. this probably the last blog i could pull out. if there's going to be for tomorrow. then that's probably going to be my last blog for this challenge.

chillin' for today for not having much activity. 

"we are partially responsible for our destiny" nobody holds what it takes for the future.

goodnight. peace out to all. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 51 | end

april 13, 2016. wednesday. to-do list is on. i made a bread and egg for my pancake with my black coffee. clean up clutters and some stuffs during the morning. my sister and i, went to emigration that noon. 

with all the rain and flood outside the road, we still have to go and took the picture taking for a visa. done and we went to eat lunch. 

after arriving to dormitory i felt the need of playing badminton because of the food we ate during lunch time. let me laugh at myself for this. i'm such a looser.

and because i am writing 5 blogs. yes, five. and so, i need to mumble words. and also i just need to meet this challenge's fulfillment. thinking of ending this challenge very soon. but i'll be fine. 

this night i went to take the book i order to print the day before. WOW the result is what i call, love. i can't wait to hit the road. travelling and start to read it and finish it right before i get back to my base. ahh. i just love this thought.

"take challenges!" it's not really that bad. after all, it's all about learning.

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 50 | books again

april 12, 2016. tuesday. this morning goes usual. i planned my whole day. went to international office in our university as usual. talked with the head of the office, again i said normal days. so the talk went on and on and on. for somewhat like academic matters.

back to dorm. lunch. nap. and gym the afternoon.

around 7pm. i went to a book shop to print one. not really the thought of filling up my free time during the trip for reading(i'll leave at 21st this april), but really, the enthusiast of me with this book is just too high. so it is a must for me to bring it along with.

the though this long trip. wuff! this is it.

"decide to be knowledgeable" with understanding of its wisdom.

peace! and xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 49 | tickets to jakarta

april 11, 2016. monday. i got up very late. with a bit of cold since the night before. and jumped out of bed after realizing i had to fix my laptop. and so i went to one of the nearest laptop service i could across upon. and Alhamdulillah they've done it so well.

naps at noon.

and a little bit more.

regenerated, energized and went to play badminton with my ever thai partner. 

that night, we bought ticket from malang to jakarta. fast forward, that night i slept at 3am. exactly 3am. thanks self. 

"don't deprive yourself from sleeping" not a good.

find peace before sleeping. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 48 | a walk to remember

april 10, 2016. sunday. very exciting morning i had for this day. had pictures and everything. but knowing that i can't even insert here some of the pictures we took during this day makes me realize i am this busy. ok. maybe some other time. maybe there will be a time in my life in the future that i will be looking back at all these and i might have that free time i am not having by now. well, thoughts are all that matters. i just loved what had happened. everything. the walking. food tasting. the views. the ambiance. the crowd. and most importantly, the feeling of accomplishment. almost an hour of walk from our campus to the sunday market. yey!

5:30. we stepped out from our dormitory starting to walk towards what everyone is talking about. the sunday market. starts at the very morning and ends till noon.

during this day, the "car free day" had gotten also in our way. and it is so, that no car is available and we just have to keep walking. i can't exactly say how far it is the distance or how far did we walked. but how long? yeah, approximately 2 hours in total. we didn't walked in a tense pace just because everyone is walking along and no one is speeding. just having a good time, though.

despite the fun and the process of pleasure we got during that outdoor activity, the consequence took part right after it. tiredness. and all of us passed out throughout noon. 

afternoon and all of us agreed to look for a wifi location and so we could download some things. 

and there we are in dunkin donut again. sitting in the glare sun light of the sunset's warmth. we drove and went to another place where we thought we could pray marghrib prayer and we continue our little journey of the day through night. we hanged out to this famous place and i really do want to put some of the pictures here and if did then that means i had the time. 

i got colds that night. 

"at the end, it's the pursuit that is all that matter"

peace and peace!

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 47 | work work work work work

april 9, 2016. saturday. i have a lot of things on my list for this one. starting with the pancake. so yeah, this goes a pretty normal day. my sister and i went to gym before 7 in the morning. catching up for the aerobic exercise schedule. saw some friends on the way out of campus. they inquire about the gym registration and stuffs. but then said bye after a while because we gotta run for the gym schedule. 

after coming back to mabna. we found this old utensils our friends left after they went home to thailand. some items are really useful and we couldn't just throw it all at once. so what we did was we picked on some items we thought we could still use and segregate from those that can't be use anymore or isn't useful anymore. 

and it's cleaning up time. 

tiredness and we took our lunch for energy regaining.

that afternoon we all thought of watching some movies to relax sometimes and chill out. 

hitman film. i loved it. piled on my favorite movie lists.

"pain is temporary" - glanced from my wall of memo.

peace and out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 46 | BLESSINGS

april 8, 2016. friday. not a normal morning for me. didn't made my pancake and all thoughts of almost everything are filling into my mind. i just don't know why. sat on my table and start writing about my depression, seriously? haha for that. well, i call it that way only because i thought of it so constant. 

but then again, everything is temporary. 

now the fuss had totally fade away right after i met a friend around 10 am. i am not going to say every details but let's just say, there's something in him that aspire me to stay focused and tact. making me realize i have what it takes to keep my sane on tract. alhamdulillah!

ok. so according to my lists of what had happened to me this day. it says i had received a pants. and as far as i remembered, i did wore it that day. i loved the color(i thought of this when i did my what-to-right-list).

had a short talk with my friend who is also in the same issue i had. papers at university. same old problem. 

that afternoon my sister showed me a video. a short film video. and... i don't know what to say about it. i am speechless at this amateur project film. and i think i better not say anything about it. but that fact that it was really new to me. and it is something very... oh no. i am not saying anything about it.

bye.

"take every opportunity to write" i have nothing in mind for now.

peace! xoxo.

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 45 | staying positive

april 7, 2016. thursday. i was suffocating by the ambiance of my room. it was still dark and right after i prayed dawn. i went upstairs to do some writing. there's always hope in writing. whenever i found myself losing hope, i write and i felt good. everything is temporary so why settle? i felt ecstatic recently and now i am feeling the opposite. not really sad, though. worry. and i try to keep it normal. we're all human. and one day, i'll be reading this and snap at myself, yes. i've been through those times. and i'll get through this. inshaAllah.

and with all the early morning energy at that morning. i stayed there till 7am. till sun shone on my laptop. i took my black coffee and of course pancake with butter. then i went back to my room to do some chores.

i washed my clothes. not too many but enough to take me down and passed out at that noon. 2 hours of nap. pathetic. i got sick.

but not sick enough to stop me from going gym. we hit gym that night.

there's this thing they called kuaci in indonesia. and with our chinese friend, she read the word "kuaci" as "kuatsi" i don't know how to put this one in writing but it is totally different from how indonesian wrote it. does that even matter? oh yes. another knowledge. i love knowledge. it is power. 

"choose the positive side" - and I'M ON IT.

peace ya'll positive peps. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 44 | tears

april 6, 2016. wednesday. the fact that this challenge made it this far is such big thing i have ever pulled up. 44 days of writing my everyday activities or at least thoughts about somehting. write one word a day is still a history. back in 2015 i was already thinking of the day i will be leaving this country. and now it is 2016 and i decided to finish later 2017. what a change. i mean, things always change. and there's always a reason.

looking at my fellow international students packing their things going back to their own countries, is to me a big realization of me leaving sooner, too. and now, it's time for them to leave ahead and finally face real life out there after experiencing a university student's life.

their mini van that's going to send them to the airport is loading their luggages with the help of some of their guy fellas. and there goes the tears. hugs. sobs. i couldn't find the right word how to express what i felt that moment. i know i am tough. i am strong. and i display serious face by occasion but this time, it caught  me. one of them told me "i am sorry for everything" and with her sincere way of expressing it by the thought of something from the past. i actually felt my eyes is going to blow anytime if she went longer. but i held myself and it didn't came out. yey! i am so disciplined person. HAHA! 

and they're gone. 

friends. it is something that doesn't come easily. it takes time to have that friend you know you will keep forever. and even though they aren't going to be with you for a long time, somehow you know they're always there and you're thankful that they became part of your life and proud of having them. knowing them. get to know some part of them. i'm honored. 

i don't know if they're proud of having me. but knowing them is also learning something along the way.

and as much i want to dedicate this blog for the whole thought of having friends. i am not adding any activities i did along this day. i just have to leave this one out and write for the next blog.

"thoughts goes out to my thailand friends. you know who you are. i will miss you all. chan rak tha!"

peace.

Daily Blog | Day 43 | speaker and etc

april 5, 2016. tuesday. i downloaded some podcast right after i finish my dawn prayer. since most of the students living in this dormitory are sleeping and then i took advantage of it. while waiting for the downlaods. i did my pancake process. this time, i really felt it. the reason why i wasn't mentioning anyone with me eating pancake is that literally, nobody is into early morning. and i do. and i sat and read a book with my breakfast. 

this day, i was thinking of washing my clothes but i didn't do it. due to things that's always coming up. 

by the way, i got sick. around 8 to 9 am. i was flat in my bed. i don't know the reason but i felt that my body just automatically needs to shut up. and it did. and i woke up and i was thinking how did that happened? how did i not able to control myself from sleeping? and i am such a loser.

...listening to greed for ilm podcast ep.165 featuring ali baluch ma favorite. on a high volume speaker. proof of my fanatic fever toward this guy here baluch. 

my body needs to take rest from yesterdays aerobic i guess. and as i am writing this right now, i still feel the pain on my throat. and if i pass out tomorrow and the next day. i would just give up on it. my body has the right to take rest too. just like my brain.

and i need to sleep. my thai friend and i planned to go out early at 5:30 to buy something we decided instead of doing it tonight. our fellow thai friends are going home tomorrow and so we just can't miss this night and so we didn't went out. they are passing old stuffs through us and other things and i am so grateful what i have felt tonight. they got me one sweat pants and i loved it.

"it's never too late". i don't know why i've said it. but i just felt it. 

peaceful full of peace. oxox

Daily Blog | Day 42 | library

april 4, 2016. monday. another one great morning because i had my pancake. like i had it on the first time. oh yeah. to-do list are up during this day. i needed to go to library to renew my books that i have borrowed for long time ago. i'm such a bad student i have to say. i never made it on time. and i'd like to write it in here so i will be reminded one day. silly! 

and so my indonesian friend and i went to library. we did some request here and there, i mean, foreigner privilege. and she pulled me into her trouble. bribing me with a dinner treat. i love those times when you know you helped someone and then they don't know how to give something back. it's nothing. but i still believe in what you have done to others is a gratitude to Allah who made us as the instrument in fulfilling somebody else's wish. it's lit.

lunch time. red rice and oh-uh. i think it's something thai food. i totally forgot what was it. 

at the afternoon. we went gym. and went back at dorm right after.

that night, we went to some famous resto. and we ate. noooooooo. i can't accept this. i am still eating meals at dinner. i'll try my luck next time. 

"we should accept that some days are bad"

peace and peace all out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 41 | reading again

april 3, 2016. sunday. this morning went just like my old mornings. pancake and my black coffee. and after that hanged out with my friends' room. now, that's something different. not that i read the whole time at her bed space.

2-3 hours i spent reading. but writing about this makes me feel like i am reading too much and i don't want to have that feeling. reading is something everybody should do at least once in day. or if you are nerd, you can do it all the time. not a piece of advice. i'm just saying.

fried rice for lunch. with a chopstick. experiment. i'm so good at it. confirmed it after i asked a chinese friend how am i doing with it and she said, YES. epic.

around 2pm. my friends and i planned to went on a wifi area. i wasn't in my best mood. realizing i haven't talked to anyone real longer because of having a kanker/canker(?) sore in my mouth and it's the best painful ever. i am suffering. my life is ruined with this small white dot that doesn't even move but giving me so much suffering. no complains here!

but i still went on that wifi area. i downloaded videos that i thought important to me. my life and my study. and we have to head back to our dormitory for such religious duties.

that afternoon, i made my lemon warm water. on my best buddy mug.

i won't lie about it. i had my dinner. red rice and something else. and i'm grinding right now. peace in advance!

"never ever ever ever give up!"

peace again boii. xoxo. going crazy with my green tea.

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 40 | sketching

april 2, 2016. saturday. i don't know when am i going to stop this challenge. but i am still up for it. i am a real trying-hard writer.

thoughts about today. sketching. haram or not. particularly, images with life. i'm not sure if i am qualified to say things about this. but...

*thinking... thinking... thinking

no, i don't want to give a comment about this (vanishing self-thoughts).

*inner chaos is going on.

and while i was writing this, a friend from the next door asked me to send her to their little thailand party. and so i drove for her and dropped her to that place and what i found there was totally unbelievable. i don't know if i am being exaggerate but for God sake i just had my heart broken. not literally. oh, i am not bringing this up. no.

sorry. this won't be part of my history.

i'm inspired to death. i don't even think i can sleep tonight. i will write something about this tomorrow inshaAllah. i am too emotional right now.

bye.

"just don't..."

praying for peaceful night. xoxo

(edited) p.s. the writing didn't happen for the next day.

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 39 | sleep over

april 1, 2016. thursday. and i really have to finish writing this or else i'll be ruining this challenge. and so, i am becoming lazy this days huh! i slept further for the furious times of my life. i fear the sleeping around 7 am. and so i forced my self to do something productive. i cooked for breakfast so i can start the day with my little creation. feel the creativity. it's flowing inside me. lol

doing this challenge really does challenge me. with my environment, i would give myself a commend. maintaining this is insane. god speed.

that noon, i just wanted to have some air and just in time, our friend fired us up to go to the mall. we head there up. 

and where at the mall. walk around and eat. and went back.

after reaching dormitory. i write a little for my blog. not too long, i slept around 10pm for the purpose of waking up so early. thank God i have reason to sleep earlier.

"conversations rules the nation" not really related. but it is what had came out of my mind.

peace mind. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 38 | posting time

march 30, 2016. wednesday. did not planning to go out again. not a bit. no nowhere. nothing. as in nothing. just to clear this up. i. am. not. going. anywhere. actually it's past tense. so i didn't went anywhere. and really. i held my words till the end of the day. my hardest days.

that day, i had an early lunch. i'm not sure what was it. but as far as my storage is concern, sure i'd done vegetables. it's the only goods i have in the fridge. i am surprised.

watched some youtube vids.

the rest of the day. i would say... leave it blank. because i'm pretty sure i did my papers and i don't want to stress thinking about it.

read couple of pages and i got unconsciously slept. getting better!

"be kind all the time"

peaceful evening and xoxo!

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 37 | my sister is sick

march 29, 2016. tuesday. it's time to make a change. oh, everyday is a change. this time i wasn't the one who went market. traditional market to be specific. cheaper, fresher and convenient too. not to mention the sanity situation but it doesn't matter.

for the mean time i realized it's been a while i was planning to talk to my parents at home. so i called them. we talked for about 10-15 mins. and it was the best. my mom as always, advising and asking and worrying about me. i love my mom. she doesn't know.

and so, being inspired after talking to mom after a while, i wrote and add up something for my papers. not too much. but i'm running out of time and i'm not doing well with my papers. i feel terrible right now, now that i was just thinking about it.

my sister got sick. she feels throwing up. dizzy and something else. it's her stomach. she drank this boiled celery she believed it's gonna give her a lot of beneficial. i didn't liked the taste. that means, i didn't drink much of it.

while i was in a serious writing and reviewing some of the papers i was working on, i came across this video i loved and i think i will be watching this as much as i can. it's about staying focus and i have to admit that writing this blog is a distraction to me. and i can't beat this one. i committed already.

speaking of distractions, i downloaded two of google apps games. i won't talk much about this subject but in a sense that it is inspiring to me, i should be writing it on my history.

that noon, i took power naps. which means, it gave me soo much energy right after i woke up. and i remember that feeling and i remember that Allah is great.

still on the room. didn't went gym. read more. trying to finish the book. but didn't yet.

the whole night i wrote and read and wrote, and revise and progress.

"time!!!" - treasure it.

i love peace. and so you do. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 36 | bad idea

march 28, 2016. monday. 1st day of the week. and i'm writing this on tuesday. forgive me, self. i couldn't be more busier than i yesterday. and so let's start breaking down this lists of mine from yesterdays event.

not long after i have done my breakfast, my roommate asked me to send her to where she is doing internship because her brother is not able to send her due to i-don't-really-know-the-whole-detail. and so i sent her and went back giving it (the motorcycle) straight to her brother.

after i went back to my dormitory i am not going to lie but i ate breakfast for the second time around. lol. it really didn't matter to me now that i am just controlling the portion i eat. no longer doing any diet. it's really not the right move for someone who really wants to lose weight and couldn't be consistent at it. and i think i am one of them and so i am trying to do something  else rather than restricting myself from eating. easier said, though.

in the middle of my breakfast second part session. i have received a text message that says "where are you, here's my project file" i'm ecstatic. i rushed to her and left my breakfast. talked to her a bit. inspired a  bit. and went back to my dormitory.

thanks to her.

reading on some technical writings about my papers i had realized i needed something that could wake me up. oh yes, it's morning and i'm sleepy. not really, i just needed a buddy. i have no one so don't blame me. i'm a loner. accordingly, but i don't felt it that way, thought.

i don't know what should i called this little inventions or should i say experiment of mine. i mixed lemon with my coffee and it blows me off. the taste is awful. and it's a bad idea. my blog title. it's the core of this writing. wosh!

so while i was sipping this crazy awful beverage i have experimented and wouldn't want to offer anyone because they might spit it out and i don't want to see it myself. i was browsing this youtube celebrity i-don't-want-to-mention-his-name but i am pretty sure i can remember his name later on if i came across my blog. but he is hilarious and funny and i am addictive watching him, eventually. i love his videos and i have to stop sometimes because it consumes most of my precious time and i don't want that to happen. moderation pals!

breaking down my lists of outlines about what happened yesterday is not a hard task. i have one of it and it says 'my sister and i decided to run every morning' and that is a pop decision. extreme. and we want to try it out. and let's see what's going to happen.

we went gym anyways. enjoyed it a little bit more. the instructor. she is beautiful and gorgeous and adorable. i can't help it. i needed to say it.

right after that gym. i made my tea. green of course and a friend that is expected to came by for a help. her assignments and exams for the next day. and not too long she left my room. and i'm alone again. and so i did some reading. i love being alone. it's hard to have it especially when you are surrounded by crowed doing nothing but to ask you to go out or do something or eat something. and so if i have this time of the day that they might be in a sleep or finally they cut me loose. i'm the happiest.

but then around 10 pm they're wandering around already. oh gosh. can't do anything. spent sometimes and after that i wrote one blog before sleeping. that's around 12 in the midnight. and then passed out!

"commit yourself"

peace and always, xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 35 | laundry day cont.

march 27, 2016. sunday. time to hang my clothes. oh no. not right in the morning. i need to do something more important than that. if you guessed it then yes, it's BREAKFAST.

did some of the chores. swiping the floor. making my bed. get rid of clutters. generally, cleaning up, boy.

and so the drying up my clothes has come. well, the back and forth process does kinda worked out here. it's at the 3rd floor which is i have to walk through a stairs before reaching the area. it's going to make my body in a good shape, i thought.

had lunch.

meet a filipino fellows. discussed. debated and disgusted at some point. done. went home.

slept around 9 pm.

"mistakes are the best teacher toward oneself" - not a pretty good day for me. but Alhamdulillah i got through it already.

peace and out. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 34 | laundry day

march 26, 2016. saturday. lemon water right in the morning. no food no nothing and we hit the gym early in the morning at 6:30 am. very motivated. applause me. haha.

making my pancake around 0900 for the intention of energy intake. im washing my laundry today. my pile of clothes. if haven't mentioned from my last blogs, i used to have pile of mountain before i'll realize i am running out of clothes to wear. my epiphany.

during the night, i decided to finish up my clothes i soaked on water with detergent. and while waiting, i didn't freed my time doing nothing. i sketch a human head. and another one. and another one. and uh-oh, i spent 2 hours sketching random things. i just got carried away. it's one of my hobby, though.

so before sleeping. i finished up all the laundry. this is so embarrassing. laundry all night.

"be patient, everything will change for the better" - not the laundry issue.

peaceful night. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 33 | forgotten

march 25, 2016. friday. i don't remember a thing. this is unbelievable. i am in a cafe right now. and this slow music is hitting on me. no lyrics but i can feel the vibes behind it.

and because i can't remember anything other than i prayed for friday prayer, let me just leave my thought blank for this blog.

-edited insertion-

we went somewhere with my sister and a couple of friends. and it rain so heavy. and we're stuck in a masjed. we waited. and we ate at a restaurant all together. fantastic menu. everyone loved it. we went back around 9 pm. a bit of tired and i don't have to say what happened next here.

-edited insertion ends here-

"reminding has beneficial" - a quranic version

peace and out and love yourself for the sake of gratitude. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 32 | spiritual water

march 24, 2016. thursday. i titled this blog as spirit water because of this.

my all time water gym buddy

i was drunk. 2 rounds of galons in 1.2 ml volume size. bottoms up. a little after 7 am, i was already having my breakfast with my morning routine that's not really new, my pancake. 

pancake on it's small size version

i'm gonna miss this. i swear i promise. and i'll move on and try another new. we'll see.

my friend asked me to send her to bus station and if i do so, i can have her motorcycle till she's back in town.

and if there's a motor cycle around. that means, there's a plan to go out of town. a couple of friends, my sister and i went to this place where you can pick an apple right from it's tree. tadaa! it's an apple farm.

what is so exciting about going somewhere isn't really about the place. it's the journey. when i am driving, it's just totally a happiness for me. i don't know. but, i feel fabulous if i have to put it in words. unfortunately, it rained. and we can't get inside the farm. we will get wet. the apple farm adventure(and probably selfie) had cancelled.

so we went back and as what i have said earlier. it's not really the place. it's the journey. we stopped by at the apple vendors beside the road and we bought some, just to have an apples at hand and so we could share it to our dorm mates.

half way, the rain goes heavy. we stopped by again for lunch and after the rain had stopped, we hit the road again. this time, i can't drive. the road is wet and it's my biggest fear.

we have arrived at the campus and so took a rest a bit.

everybody agreed to look for wifi that night and we went to this place since there's the motorcycle available to be used, why not take advantage of it.

we only have 1 hour to stay at that restaurant. as if we don't know they've giving us limit to stay because of our prolong habitual stay. just because it's not crowded and the wifi is pretty awesome.

after a rush downloads. the time has come and we need to leave the place. i needed to download. i'm greedy. and i want wifi more than i want food.

we head back dormitory.

prayed and unconsciously fell asleep. realizing i haven't changed my last night outfit after waking up the next day.

"don't party when you don't have the reason to" - nailed it.

stay awesome. peace and out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 31 | 30 mins shopping

march 23, 2016. wednesday. i didn't went to class. my sister and i needed to buy groceries.

pancake saves me every morning. it's a thing. without pancake i'll be lying dead on bed. and i am exaggerating.

getting through morning. my sister and i got a motor available for only 30 mins long. that's not even long. that's the shortest time you could get when borrowing a motor cycle plus the shopping hour. oh no. not even an hour. we rushed. like we're on a challenge reality tv show. you need to finish a task in a small period of time.

we made it to the nearest mall we could approach. 10-15 mins rushing and chucking on items. it was morning so it wasn't really crowded.

and we're done.

i gave back the to the owner and i realized we are late 5 mins long. huff! alright. time saver. i ate some sandwich bread for my lunch. then do some writing of my papers afterwards (i'm still on college). helped out a friend translating her project.

aerobic. gym. realized something while waiting. and the thoughts i had were just a bomb. and i don't think i can make it elaborate in here. i'll make another blog for it separately inshaAllah.

right after maghrib(evening prayer). we went to meet our fellows to discuss some important matters. filipinos. and i didn't really like this meet up. something tells me, this is not right. i don't know if it was just my mood of not wanting to talk to anyone at that night or it's just the ambience. people. things around. and whatnot except me. lol

we came back. and what i did was exactly the opposite of what was i thinking. and that is to read something for my papers. research. oh great. i watch a couple of youtube videos to cheer me up but nope, it didn't worked out. and i passed out. bad. i mean, bed.

"be yourself" - eating those pasta.

peace and out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 30 | lazy day

march 22, 2016. tuesday. and it is exactly 2151 at the evening. not really that sleepy that is why i'm writing this blog on time. and at the same time. while waiting for this wifi to work well without interruptions, because it really drives me crazy waiting and staring and clicking. not a good habit to develop so i'd rather type some words for you and for me and the entire human race. haha! michael jackson's.

i kind of always sing words. i'm weird. i know.

so i got up this morning. as always. i'm so proud of myself and not at the same time. i spent the whole 2 hours watching this youtuber in the video. but it wasn't my fault. it was the wifi that goes crazy faster than usual. so i ran to this videos and it doesn't buffer. so the awesome me, clicked here and there.

the sun raised up and i to did. made a pancake. for me. because nobody woken up so i can share my crucial pancake..

i'm so hype tonight(during the writing) and i still can't figure out why i do. i'll say it to my next blog if i finally realize what is this fuss all about. but for now, nothing is coming out of my brain. why oh why. no reason, i promise, no nothing. i think this is just the after math of this empty mug beside me. which was full of coffee 20 mins ago. i bet.

"time that's gone, is gone forever" i'm not sure i had mentioned this from my last blogs. but anyway. i just want to remind my myself. because myself always forget. things.

peace out! love lots! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 29 | missed a call

march 21, 2016. monday. bread with egg. just to have a breakfast. a great fight between reading and sleeping. ha! there you go. i'm not sleeping. imagine all of them were asleep. i guess i was just experiencing past old mornings. but hey, everyday is a new day.

like this one. i had picked up a call from an old friend. she invited us for a meeting in our old university, back then when my sister and i are still learning indonesian language. so we went and got to met our old family kind of. we brought our chinese friend along so she could see and probably wander around the campus. not so surprisingly, she met her fellow, a chinese. talk a bit and then i have to cut their converse because we only have limited time to go back to our campus. if it's meant to be, they'll meet each other in the future. don't worry.

we ate our lunch. normal. rice. and i'm not gonna say other details. i felt the guilt.

we went back to our dormitory. made some smoothie and read more. crucial.

my sister told me during that afternoon that my parents were looking for me and that they want to check on me if i am doing well. i checked my phone and i saw a missed call on my log and yes, i missed the calls which is actually their first attempt is to talk with me rather than my little sister. but sorry mom/dad, i will make it up to you next time. and i should promise. mmm promise.

around magrib... skipping the exercise we did. that is almost an everyday activity so i thought it would be fine to put it out sometimes. so, we went to find this restaurant. and i thank God i am still able to live right now and write. i still remember that nerve and goose bumps happened to me during the search for that restaurant. it's a sky bridge. and it is shallow. and humps are like a meter distances at each other. and you can actually see the roofs of the houses right under your feet. dark and flat roofs. and there's a lot of motorcycles coming by and across. i was holding my breath till the we pass off of the bridge.

it was breath taking and at the same time fantastic experience.

i don't know if it was just me. or my driver got used to that way and she never made an expression.

"do what you think is right".

peace out! joy and love! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 28 | received a message

march 20, 2016. sunday. my alarm clock rang before the dawn prayer. i went to pray and wait. wait. and wait more. the blue sky is now lining the sky. not dark enough to see through our kitchen. we have a broken bulb. and that is why i needed to wait till darkness fade and brightness took place.

had my breakfast. alone. still hanged over from yesterdays tiredness and so i spent my whole day roaming around and didn't do that much.

oh sunday.

"appreciate everything" - include sundays.

xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 27 | i became a parents

march 19, 2016. saturday. unusual morning. and the reason why is because as what i have said from my last blog it's a very important day, to my friends and for me to.

celebrating this day for them and i couldn't be more proud for them, making it together. not me. probably joining the next batch. graduation. yey!

cookies and coffee i did for a quick breakfast preparation. i needed to dress up. i am having a role as a parents for this day. since we are all in the same situation, i mean no significant others here and i mean here biological family, it has been an agreement that whoever gets the need of having an attendance of a family member, others will fulfill the compulsory and i, this time is get the role. perfect. now i need to find some decent clothes for me to put on a casual look. i did and i guess it's a fun experience. end of story. 

what happens after the graduation ceremony? not this time, it isn't a party. it is actually a slumber party. and i don't mean partying literally. what i mean here, exhaustion after the long waiting of this ceremony causes everyone to sleep carelessly everywhere. i got up after sometimes, though. that's why i had witnessed the mess and the clutters here and there.

at the end of the day, i was thankful it ended finally.

"thanks God for everything"

xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 26 | tomorrow

march 18, 2016. friday. my alam clock rang before the dawn prayer and then i waited for the blue sky to take place over the horizon. precious times are always precious.

bright enough to see through our kitchen, i started my morning breakfast preparation. boil a hot water. mixing my pancake ingredients. table's arrangement. chair. and my book. waiting for 6:30 to come.

it's friday and we are doing our gym in the morning. why because tomorrow morning we won't be able to. something else has to be done and it will be mention on my next blog, inshaAllah.

for the lunch. i didn't cook this time. somebody did but i'm not sure who and what i can remember is we ate all together like a group. and it's like eating during a party. everybody's spoon is on their hands and scooping here and there. i had so much fun.

this moments are unforgettable. mkay! exaggerate!

not so much for the afternoon. i guess it's just the preparations for tomorrows event.

and for the evening. some of us are just so busy for something important that's going to happen for their life. and again, tomorrow.

"end is just another beginning"

night yow peaceful. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 25 | my passport

march 17, 2016. thursday. and i'm writing this on saturday morning. what a mess! i feel sorry for myself for not being consistent. and now i have to recall what had happened during this day.

let's start. i woke up in the morning from another room. yes. i remember waking up with shocked realizing i passed out not knowingly taking other's bed. well, i guess we are living in one building and so, it's just part of it. we own everything and everywhere.

i had done my breakfast and i'm on my couch. reading.

so it was my cellphone lost issue. my friend and i went to my cellular provider, i call it. it is a center where they serve you anything about your subscription number. because it's not really the cellphone is the issue here. it was my contacts. i've been carrying this number for almost 4 years since i came indonesia, and it will be a huge change if all of a sudden i will change it. so the service center sort of relocate my number into a new simcard. awesome. i had no idea this was possible.

we didn't went to gym. instead we went to see our friend that's based around town. had a little bit of talk and coffee. ended around 5pm.

that night my friends and i went out to hangout somewhere and we found a convenient store not by choice.

we headed back right after a bit of snacks and short talks.

i didn't do much after that. just a preparations in engaging bed. lol. and i alhamdulillah, i had a very good night sleep.

"never leave a day without doing something awesome"

awesome and peace. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 24 | upstairs

march 16, 2016. wednesday. this time. i took cookies with my black coffee morning. perfect. i mean really. i want to miss my pancake sometimes. 

i entitled this blog 'upstairs' because  when i thought of it, half of this day, i spent it upstairs. it's a place between a two stairs going up and the other one is going down. sort of like that. i hope i had put it in a right word picturing it out. don't really know how to explain it exactly. but anyway i call it like that because it's going upstairs. enough about it. but it's a quiet place where you can sit there for an hours and hours and nobody could distract you.

and just like i said. no distractions so, what happened was, uh-oh 5-6 hours of reading my book. it's bad. i spent 6 hours. non-stop. it's insane. i know. 3 hours was the longest time i spent reading a book from very recent. and i think if i have time. i'll do it again.

late lunch after a visit to one the university. shortly after reaching dormitory. i've realize my mini-phone was missing. i've lost it. didn't really need the phone but the number per se. my contacts were there. urgh! it's a mess! i waited for the next day if ever there is still some kind of a pure and kind-hearted person  picked it up for me or found it and think it's better to give it back to the owner and not applying the sayings 'founder's keepers'.

"let it go" it's it.

for peaceful sake. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 23 | the change

march 15, 2016. tuesday. had an awesome morning breakfast. sandwich spread with one of them fellas. others. sleeping. urgh! it's so annoying. the silence is equivalent to the thoughts of annoyance a bit. why people sleeps in the morning? hah! the answer? nah. it's just me. not them. everyone sees everything differently. so i just thought i have to respect differences. but it's hard you know. it's still unreasonable to sleep at mornings. for me. not unless you are sick.

sitting alone. working on my papers. writing. reading. and yes. a little of this. blog drafts. if something pops into my mind. i directly open up my notepad and type it. a friend of mine with me. helping me understand some things i might needed to add up for my paper. and one more thing. i don't know if i can solve "this" another problem. i could scream so loud but it doesn't really count. i should do it on my own.

and here i am alone again. trying to review what happened right after i wrote the last paragraph above. what happened after i packed my laptop and bag were disappointing. our ENC room is gone. the whole floor of the building is renovating. the only thing we have saved were the books and the electric wall fans.

we went to gym and me in not my best mood tried to put it all up during the dance session. my focus is not on the steps but on the things i have been thinking since morning.

oh i hate this feelings. Allah help me!

it's 2343 in the evening and i just didn't want to miss this blog so i don't have to worry about it tomorrow.

done.

"your life is the product of your thoughts" - don't be sad. book.

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 22 | hopeful

march 14, 2016. monday. i wasn't sure if i slept genuinely last night. i did a nap on the other room last night and didn't know it wasn't really going to be a nap.

terrible apparently because i slept until dawn. realized it when i suddenly open my eyes and jumped out of the bed because of the visible dark blue sky over the door glass and oh crap i have to go back to my real bed. but it's already too late. it's morning.

i made a pancake. not really my ideal one but it worked out on my empty stomach. it's my healthies food for a day. i needed it. nobody is allowed to object on this one.

in fact. you'll get in trouble if you do.

around 10am. i wore a suit. wasn't my best but it worked out on me. i will be meeting a friend. after sometimes of waiting her. she can't make the meet up. so i took off the "suit".

throughout afternoon, i was reading some articles on google. my bad habit. i know.

going back and forth on my working area.

i'm writing this live. and i hope i can upload it right away. it's going to be depending on my internet connection. and oh, i am currently downloading some videos. and

while waiting. i'll be up for the night and watch some of my favorite youtubers.

to everyone, "love one another".

peace and out. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 21 | staying

march 13, 2016. sunday. morning. i had received the message that the seminar was cancelled. now, what to do?  i turned my laptop on. and did some readings. i didn't want to sleep that morning. while everyone around me are in slumber. dept into their sleeps. to think it was morning. but yeah, sunday. if not going out. then going to sleep.

i read until noon time. read afternoon. and read again on the evening. and finished the book. crazy. i started it last two days ago. and i don't know if i read it faster than i thought? or i was just being so hard to myself with the feeling of reading one book a day. no, that's just impossible. with all the chores and other things i needed to do in a day. it's just so impossible for me to attain reading one book in one day.

the excitement of reading a book when you are about to start the first chapter. you are about to enter a world. and get out of it when you reach the end of its page.

"me before you" by jojo moyes. done and listed on my 100 books i've read. well, there's lot more books to read. i can't be celebrating.

passed out early at 10pm.

"never settle for average" excellence bruh bruhhs.

peace and out. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 20 | Cake

march 12, 2016. saturday. i was told 3 days before this day, there will be a guesting for a highschool institute. the scenario will be i will be a speaker motivator. not that i am qualified to, but let's just say, my path. in the future. lol. inshaAllah.

we went to gym first thing in the morning. but we have reached the gym uncrowded. so we went on a convenient store and grab some food. light breakfast. for a store up energy. we did our aerobic for an hour.

we head back to our dormitory and made some real breakfast.

going back to where i started this blog. it's about an invitation from a friend. she booked for my saturday and sunday. so you know what that means? all weekend plans are cancelled. but really? i waited till the afternoon. and evening and the next morning. finally she broke it to me that the seminar was cancelled without letting me know the information, for God sake i would have done so many things during this day not just wiating for nothing. anyway, i have continue reading my book. while waiting.

oh cake. the title of this blog. so i was reading. reading and reading. then on the afternoon our chinese friend came over with cake. for others, it was a blessing. for me, a challenge. but i didn't refuse it. instead. i eat a whole slice of it. i don't mind. i crave for it. but she was bringing a huge one. and she's still offering for another more piece of it. it's hard to say no and crap i did say no for another bite. indulging myself reading my book. until the cake disappeared. then i realized, why it was being place right in front of me? temptation.

"Dream Big" please.

peace and out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 19 | Podcasts

march 11, 2016. friday. last night's hangover from sleeping too late. had to finish some tasks. and i'm thankful. accomplished before 3 am. super late. and the result. i didn't made it to 4:30 am. lame. i am. well, i always called myself irresponsible whenever i couldn't make it early. waking up. anyone who is going to disagree. then don't. if i don't train myself then who. nobody. and by the way it's friday. it's an important day.

so i did a carrot pancake this time. and they loved it. again. i am not sure, though. but if it's edible, then somehow someone is going to undertake it. if none. then i think i will be the one who is going to take it down. love your own work. on positive thinking.

somewhere in 1100. i found myself looking for something to listen to. and i found the old podcasts i downloaded last year. i'm glad i still have them. so i played it and listen through out the noon.

the rain pours down. and my appointment for today will be cancelled i assumed. and yes as it supposed to. we went to gym that afternoon. after the gym and got back to dormitory i found my phone on the pocket of my bag soak in water because of the rain. great sadness.

because of exhaustion. i went to bed so early. ignoring my friends invition for movie watching.

"be a benefit to mankind" heard from a podcast.

peace and out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 18 | chocolate coffee

march 10, 2016. thursday. i'm glad i made it today. changes aren't really happening. but i still kept my morning organized as much as i can. no getting back to bed.

there's still more important things to do. so i might get myself intact not to lose to-do lists and mess up everything.

this morning. i watch some of the videos that are important to me. i won't give you details about it. but it is something i needed for myself to keep it improving. i am praying for everyone's success through this life and the hereafter. ameen.

this blog, i'm just going to give some thoughts about something. let's say about watching movies. since i don't really remember exactly what did i do. probably watched some movies with friends. and somehow you thought you wasted your time. but if i look at the positive side. i'm learning from movies. something you could do both entertainment and observation and if we could contemplate with it. it is actually beneficial.

didn't read so much this day. i spent most of my time organizing my things around the room. i cooked and we all eat. i'm not sure if i did it right. they ate it. and i'm glad. if my sister is around. no food shall go to waste. she's a monster eater.

had an appointment for tomorrow friday. if in case it will rain. i don't think i will make a word.

"in life. you can teach yourself"

peace to everyone. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 17 | Arabic Song by maher zain

march 10, 2016. wednesday. red date. kind of. but not to me. everyone is talking about the solar eclipse and those things. sun. moon. offering of prayer. what's new is, there's no gym. it's off. received a notice message before i prepared to go in the morning to do some work out.

changed plan. slept back a little bit. but frankly speaking. i didn't like what i did there. but it felt like a little less guilt because everyone around me is in depth of their sleep unlike me, scared of knocking my self out because of some obligations i needed to fulfill during this day.

so i got up. straight to kitchen. did my morning routine.

arabic song by maher zain i entitle this blog because this day i had my vocal on practice. haha. kidding. my thai friends are going to perform a song dedicated for their senior's farewell party. and i got interested at the song they're about to sing on that occasion. it's maher zain's. supreb. the beats. the meaning. and maher's mashaAllah's voice. fantastic. he is always been, though.

so no gym today. not so great.

around 1800. friends and i went to have an internet. and there's only one place to be where wifi is the fastest and a perfect place to hangout. we spent there a couple of hours then decided to go back to dormitory. really some important stuffs from internet. i downloaded some lecture videos and some related for my study thesis and whatnot.

i started to write this around 2400 in the midnight and alhamdulillah. i have made it on time.

"it's always seems impossible until it's done" nelson mandela.

goodnight. peace! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 16 | TEDx with Praya Lundberg

march 8, 2016. tuesday. another plain day to me again. morning routine. my special personal recipe pancake. and of course my black coffee. delayed by the way because i tried a lemon water intake before anything else. and try to make it constant inshaAllah.

through lunch time. my friends and i are having good times talking and teasing each other until i sat down on one corner and found myself trolling on youtube.

TEDx channel. one of my favorite place on youtube.

on praya lundberg. she talks about her life story, her job and what made her keep motivated and inspired. she talks about being grateful and how we are so lucky for being able to have a proper education. she is inspirational. and she just gained my respect.

that afternoon. we went to aerobic.

grab a frozen sweet potato i've boiled at the morning. ate it to survive the night. not having much time to prepare a food.

i washed my clothes. arranged clutters on my space. i have three places to deal with. my bed. my closet and my work space. trying to keep everything organize. well, i just don't want to free my time.

slept around 1100. just the expected time i set out to.

"have a sense of purpose" glanced at my wall quoted by nak.

peace to out everyone! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 15 | no escape

march 7, 2016. monday. everybody in the hood woke up a little bit late this time. it was because of what had happened last night. and this day i was thinking and praying as well that Allah make her well and forget all the bad emotional stress our friend is going through right now. ameen.

i was thinking of writing about her today. but i choose not to talk about somebody else's issue that they're are not proud of. leaving my blog updated about almost everything is a record of  what i was. and so i could change something if there's wrong spotted and hopefully build myself in to a better one inshaAllah.

so we went to a traditional market during the morning. i bought some veges and fruits. i didn't cook because my sister and i had a plan to eat out with 2 of our friends.

and then the lunch had done in one of the famous restaurant in town.

so we plan to go to this grocery that has imported goodies. on the way there, there's something happen. we change track. and here's why.

my sister on my back. and the other two on the other motorcycle. we are driving on the way to this grocery i-don't-know-the-name. and all of a sudden my sister shouted at me, "i saw somebody". and i put it in a low profile as 'somebody' because it's not really the subject of this blog. so let's assume that his name is 'somebody'. we informed the other friends about spotting 'somebody'. and we argued until we reach a traffic light and did some confirmation talk. maybe it's him. maybe not.

a bit later and there's motorcyle not too distant from us, stopped. on his helm. at the back of his friend.
he never turn his head toward us. but our intuition gives us more eager to know if it's him or not.

the green hit the traffic light. and snap! we decided to follow the motorcycle to where it's heading and clear out our confusion. we rushed like a policemen chasing a fugitive. excitement!

they parked. and so we do. we all stopped. there you go. it's him. confirmed. we had a short talk and then we left.

sensational. we are all occupied in amusement. until we reach our dormitory and it is still what we are talking about. and here i am writing about it too. i can't get enough about it. that feeling, though. extreme. and i loved it!

1600. we did our gym-aerobic daily routine.

i didn't had my formal dinner that night. left overs. haha. i got exhausted and went to bed so early. set my alarm clock at 0330 in the morning.

word. "do not backbite". it's a no self-improvement. improved yourself instead.

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 14 | one book down

march 6, 2016. sunday. it's the 14th day and it felt like the 14th month. haha. trying to keep it online. and chill out. but there's still a lot of things i did this day.

after a light breakfast, i have sent my friend on a bus terminal. leaving me her motor cycle so we can use it until she came back. that's probably 3 days long.

funny, because this day, there was a lot things that is happening in my mind thinking i will put it in here.

empty.

i couldn't recall it. it doesn't even ring a bell. but i will inshaAllah. remember. and on that moment that it will come out, i will make sure i will write it on my memo so it won't go away and will finally put it in here. i love sharing. and hopefully inspire others. 

we were planning to go grocery. hypermarket. goods and stuffs for the week's supply. but we didn't went.

woah. i had finished the book by afternoon. and i am so happy. starting another one. that night. i went to meet a friend doing my final thesis for my requirements. finally, i did some initial codings. feeling geek. haha. after 2 and a half hours, she sent me back to my dormitory.

i didn't had my dinner. i took tea and some cookies.

around 2300. something happen unusual. and i cannot tell the story here. i could tell you my thoughts about it but not exactly what had happened.

jinn possession on one of our friend from thailand on the next door. laughing, crying, uttering some words all at the same time. it creeps me out. well, not just me. but behind all what happened that night. i thank God up there.

finally, everyone slept around 0300 in the morning. result of the creepy-jinn-thing-possession.

"be kind. all the time." okay self?.

peace you all. xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 13 | oatmeal and chocolate

march 5, 2016. saturday. don't know where to start to write this day. but as i had mentioned on my previous blog, that i'm trying not to procrastinate. at least on posting. writing anything. a challenge is a challenge. i am engaged and i need to fulfill it. for my personal improvement and self-satisfaction. because you know, i never became satisfied with whatever i perform. at least for myself. it's always not enough. i can always find a hole and less satisfaction. and i don't know if this is a some kind of a mental disorder or whatever. i don't feel like i am doing all my best at everything i do. and it's funny because there's always someone who is going to remind me that i did fantastic. haha! i'm never gonna fall for this lie.

oatmeal and chocolate milk in a small size of bowl. my lemon water. and went to gym for aerobic.

an hour passed by and we went back to my dorm. and i passed out. exhausted.

around 1000. of course, my smoothie habit. this time, it's guyavano. perfect. offered some friends to taste it. and they loved it too.

for our lunch. it's the best. haha. thai food. and because i so much crave for shrimp. shrimp. i don't know if it's going to embarrass me, but this is one of my favorite sea food. there i said it.

had nothing to do that afternoon. i took a nap. mind refreshed. and here i am. writing.

"focus"

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 12 | friday love day

march 4, 2016. friday. holy day. normally, you have that feeling of making the day special. that's just within us. muslims. friday is always a blessed day. it is as if, you have given a chance. a chance to reflect. to begin again. repent. and start fresh.

i had my morning coffee. alhamdulillah. it's a great great day. tried to finish up this blog but failed to do so. that's why i'm writing it today. and it's saturday night. and honestly, i really don't like this procrastination. i'm try to subdue this habit of mine. and inshAllah one day, i'll get over it.

around 1000. once again. my favorite part of the day and i guess i'm getting addicted to it. making smoothie. this time it's a carrot.

for lunch. my brilliant roommate cooked a chicken with vegetables and a red rice and fell for it. i loved it.

searched for my plastic mug with straw. ready to filled it up with water. and the big galon is empty. great. i need to phone the water delivery.

done.

gym hour.

went to giant for some groceries. apple. orange. lemon. and i found this green tea i didn't even know what if i'm gonna like it. but the box itself is so interesting and convincing. thank God i bought it.

"never procrastinate"

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 11 | dunkin donut

march 3, 2016. thursday. pretty much a normal day.

i started my morning with a burger. a coffee. and some oatmeal. yes. almost perfect.

but again, depression about my external hard disk because it doesn't work. it won't open and i have important files in it. thankfully, i have a genius friend. i gave it to him that noon so he could check it and probably get back my files. he is my only hope after i tried all my best.

i boiled chicken for lunch. we ate. not to mention the snacks right after the meal. and i think i needed to write it down here too. so i can keep it on records.

around 1300 i felt the need of connecting to the internet. my friends and i went to dunkin donut. bad. i need to have a bite. and it's too bad when you are in some kind of a struggle, losing some weight for example. everything around you seems like a pile of food just like this one i captured. 

my samsung camera does work perfectly

gosh, i did ate some of it. i don't say no to food. specially like these ones. but luckily, i didnt binge. i ate intuitively. and inshAllah it will be for good. i'd love to write about 'intuitive eating' one day because it's so relevant.

i rush at the gym around 1500. i left my laptop with a downloading state. my friends brought it back for me. i can't be late at gym. i have schedule to catch up.

"never underestimate prayer"

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 10 | Burger in breakfast

getting up so early is one of the benefit from sleeping early the night before. i got up before anyone else around me. self praise is going on here. haha!

the silence. the darkness outside the window. this feeling before the sun will rise from the horizon and this world where i live starts to commence busyness. it's a gift. morning is a gift for those people who are seeking blessing in this world and hereafter. dawn is the best. it's a blessed moment.

around 0600 one of my friend started to make a breakfast. and surprisingly, it's a burger. blessings doesn't it?! every second of this present life i'm having won't be forgotten later on. it will always be part of my future. we don't stay forever where we are. we constantly move from place to another. and i want to make everything count. learn from bad and keep the good ones.

morning coffee. done.

clean up my bed. done.

read my book. not done yet. got tired after 2 hours. and went to kitchen to make a smoothie. an apple smoothie. with carrots. oh it's perfect. not for my sister's taste. i don't know, and i didn't ask. i just felt it.

lunch time is approaching. my sister went to her tajweed class. and i went back to reading. i. need. to. finish. it. asap.

around 1300. we had our lunch.

preparing for gym after 1500. everyday routine. and i tried to keep my sister on track. she might break down for this intense exercise activity i am putting her on. it's what she wants. lose some of her fats. she is fat. and i am not an exemption.

writing this one now because i slept so early last night. being productive the next day one great accomplishment.

"don't settle, keep going" if you stop. life doesn't

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 9 | Smoothie

march 1, 2016. tuesday. yesterdays hangover from all the things i did were still felt during this day. tired in short.

breakfast. our usual pancake. of course. then we had this friend of ours inspired us to come to gym at 8am.

we went.

my sisters body pain got worse after we had the aerobic. i gave her some strenght workout for the first time i thought she can handle. this leaves her sore. sorry not sorry. that's just the way it is. no pain no gain.

we didn't went anywhere during this day. we had our little snacks around 1100. and for me, i took it as a lunch. not having time to make one along the afternoon. i made two types of smoothie in one setting. i loved it. because i made it.

one of my friend asked me what did i do to make it the same taste as those smoothie selling outside. well, it's all about practice. it's a joke and if anyone knows how to make smoothie and read this. just keep it between you and me. the secret on making a smoothie. lol 

i spent the whole afternoon reading a book. a little bit of a break and goes back to reading. i'm not goin to say i am addicted. the book per se is so great that's keeping you goes on and on. and there's more to that factor why i wanted to finish it. there's another book waiting for me on the line.

so the day ends. night came and we ate macarooni for dinner. i can't finish a one serving. so i called a friend and help me finish it. it's call reinforcement. you don't want to waste a food, right?!

i slept so early. that's why i'm writing this the next day.

"no pain, no gain" is the word of the day inspired by the sore i am feeling right at this very moment.

peace out! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 7 | Aerobic is fun

february 29, 2016. monday. nothing much to say about it. had a normal breakfast with all my roommates. and a permanent guest from another room. that means, she is almost always present every breakfast meeting. 'may' her name. a chinese.

she's weird. but that's fine.

i made my bed. arranged clutters everywhere. and swiped the floor. and that's all i remember. now this is a problem when i try to write the day after. i can't exactly remember what i did. especially when you try to force to think and nothing really happens after a quiet few minute.

aha! i read. the book from my previews blog. overwhelmed at it until i spent 2 to 3 hours. thinking i could finish it. but no. i don't read without deep understanding. well, i have to contemplate before leaving a chapter. absorbing all the possible knowledge that i could get from it's context. call me greedy but i won't let an unfamiliar word became familiar before i let it go.

merriam dictionary is the best dictionary phone app i've ever had.

moving on. we had our irregular lunch. yummy russian dish. not the exactly the same with the original recipe. but close to it.  potato is the main ingredients. too bad i didn't had it in my camera.

we went to gym that afternoon.

we joined the aerobic and for the first time. my enjoyment at exercising goes 10. i mean this had never happened from previous aerobic dance session before. my sister is a little bit of a silly when it comes to crowd. and imagine, her level of craziness went insane till the dance instructor joined her amusement. in short, we really had fun.

exhausted and starving. my sister and i went to my orthodontics for my monthly check up control. that was around 1900 in the evening. it took us 30 mins long for us to reach the clinic-house. wet and dark road is what made us drove on a normal speed because i too careful. i am.

after a few minutes. said goodbye to my doctor and hit the road again heading back to my campus. i was froze on the way back. rain is pouring. and i still manage to drive.

fetched some friends from a near mall on the way back to our dormitory. had a dinner. fried chicken and a cup of rice. and soon right after the shopping. we went back to our campus.

what a day! and i am grateful for it.

word for the day. or word for this blog "FOLLOW YOUR PASSION" read at bill gates post :)

peace! xoxo

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 6 | keep writing

february 28, 2016. sunday. at 1750. having all the fellas around sitting at my back while me writing this 3 blogs at a time. oh yeah. they're shouting and screaming on this "chef" titled movie i got from a friend. it's cool. they have famous casts like robert downey jr. and scarlett johansson and many more.

my thoughts on it. very funny and recommended for amigos to watch!

for today's blog is going to be very short. because as what i have said on the previous one, it's a chillin' day. specially sunday because it's almost all about planning.

we had our breakfast. as usual. pancake. and i don't think i'll get bored with it. like forever. it's my own recipe. i'll have a one blog for it inshaAllah.

driving under the sun around 1000. granting my roommate's request sending her to the market for her needed material in making a dress for her graduation. it would be so rude for me not to drive for her. and i love driving. this is something i can't resist. please ask me to drive and i'll be pleased to.

we had reached the dormitory around duhr time. that means, lunch and noon time prayer.

my sister cooked a rice. a red rice. less sugar. more healthy. i still eat white rice. though i tried not to consume more of it as much as i can. we paired it with some indonesian dish. it's awesome. i loved it.

dinner time and "there's a beauty in everything" let's all get that through our heads.

peace. xoxo!

Daily Blog Challege | Day 5 | chillin' day

february 27, 2016. saturday. one of my favorate days of the week after friday. it's a day where i felt like i am in control of everything i want to do. particularly,

it a "me" day. well, of course because i am commited at exercising, it so important for me to not to be heedless at my priorities. because it is important for us to be mindful of eveyrthing we do.

enough about the sermons.

just as a normal elder sister, i need to take over my sister. lookout on her as if i will be paid for the effort i will be making. she went back to sleep that morning and sorry, she need to listen to me. as her elder sister and an acting baby sitter. then, we hit gym.

after an hour. we went back to our dormitory by foot.

pancake of course. my 3 ingredients pancake. everybody loves it. i assume.

at noon, my sister is in exhaustion so she had her nap. i don't. 'cause i am on a mission. to finish a book. so i read 'til i get tired. 351 pages and i am on it's 131. cool. not really getting myself busy. but i just had an urge to finish it up. to me, it is a fantastic book.

i had my photo copy with a nice cover

i really didn't do anything this day. just chillin' and getting myself ready for this weekdays to come.

a words i got and contemplate for for this writing... "Allah praises His servant who are humble".

peace out! xoxo