april 3, 2016. sunday. this morning went just like my old mornings. pancake and my black coffee. and after that hanged out with my friends' room. now, that's something different. not that i read the whole time at her bed space.
2-3 hours i spent reading. but writing about this makes me feel like i am reading too much and i don't want to have that feeling. reading is something everybody should do at least once in day. or if you are nerd, you can do it all the time. not a piece of advice. i'm just saying.
fried rice for lunch. with a chopstick. experiment. i'm so good at it. confirmed it after i asked a chinese friend how am i doing with it and she said, YES. epic.
around 2pm. my friends and i planned to went on a wifi area. i wasn't in my best mood. realizing i haven't talked to anyone real longer because of having a kanker/canker(?) sore in my mouth and it's the best painful ever. i am suffering. my life is ruined with this small white dot that doesn't even move but giving me so much suffering. no complains here!
but i still went on that wifi area. i downloaded videos that i thought important to me. my life and my study. and we have to head back to our dormitory for such religious duties.
that afternoon, i made my lemon warm water. on my best buddy mug.
i won't lie about it. i had my dinner. red rice and something else. and i'm grinding right now. peace in advance!
"never ever ever ever give up!"
peace again boii. xoxo. going crazy with my green tea.
Friday, April 22, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 40 | sketching
april 2, 2016. saturday. i don't know when am i going to stop this challenge. but i am still up for it. i am a real trying-hard writer.
thoughts about today. sketching. haram or not. particularly, images with life. i'm not sure if i am qualified to say things about this. but...
*thinking... thinking... thinking
no, i don't want to give a comment about this (vanishing self-thoughts).
*inner chaos is going on.
and while i was writing this, a friend from the next door asked me to send her to their little thailand party. and so i drove for her and dropped her to that place and what i found there was totally unbelievable. i don't know if i am being exaggerate but for God sake i just had my heart broken. not literally. oh, i am not bringing this up. no.
sorry. this won't be part of my history.
i'm inspired to death. i don't even think i can sleep tonight. i will write something about this tomorrow inshaAllah. i am too emotional right now.
bye.
"just don't..."
praying for peaceful night. xoxo
thoughts about today. sketching. haram or not. particularly, images with life. i'm not sure if i am qualified to say things about this. but...
*thinking... thinking... thinking
no, i don't want to give a comment about this (vanishing self-thoughts).
*inner chaos is going on.
and while i was writing this, a friend from the next door asked me to send her to their little thailand party. and so i drove for her and dropped her to that place and what i found there was totally unbelievable. i don't know if i am being exaggerate but for God sake i just had my heart broken. not literally. oh, i am not bringing this up. no.
sorry. this won't be part of my history.
i'm inspired to death. i don't even think i can sleep tonight. i will write something about this tomorrow inshaAllah. i am too emotional right now.
bye.
"just don't..."
praying for peaceful night. xoxo
(edited) p.s. the writing didn't happen for the next day.
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 39 | sleep over
april 1, 2016. thursday. and i really have to finish writing this or else i'll be ruining this challenge. and so, i am becoming lazy this days huh! i slept further for the furious times of my life. i fear the sleeping around 7 am. and so i forced my self to do something productive. i cooked for breakfast so i can start the day with my little creation. feel the creativity. it's flowing inside me. lol
doing this challenge really does challenge me. with my environment, i would give myself a commend. maintaining this is insane. god speed.
that noon, i just wanted to have some air and just in time, our friend fired us up to go to the mall. we head there up.
doing this challenge really does challenge me. with my environment, i would give myself a commend. maintaining this is insane. god speed.
that noon, i just wanted to have some air and just in time, our friend fired us up to go to the mall. we head there up.
and where at the mall. walk around and eat. and went back.
after reaching dormitory. i write a little for my blog. not too long, i slept around 10pm for the purpose of waking up so early. thank God i have reason to sleep earlier.
"conversations rules the nation" not really related. but it is what had came out of my mind.
peace mind. xoxo
after reaching dormitory. i write a little for my blog. not too long, i slept around 10pm for the purpose of waking up so early. thank God i have reason to sleep earlier.
"conversations rules the nation" not really related. but it is what had came out of my mind.
peace mind. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 38 | posting time
march 30, 2016. wednesday. did not planning to go out again. not a bit. no nowhere. nothing. as in nothing. just to clear this up. i. am. not. going. anywhere. actually it's past tense. so i didn't went anywhere. and really. i held my words till the end of the day. my hardest days.
that day, i had an early lunch. i'm not sure what was it. but as far as my storage is concern, sure i'd done vegetables. it's the only goods i have in the fridge. i am surprised.
watched some youtube vids.
the rest of the day. i would say... leave it blank. because i'm pretty sure i did my papers and i don't want to stress thinking about it.
read couple of pages and i got unconsciously slept. getting better!
"be kind all the time"
peaceful evening and xoxo!
that day, i had an early lunch. i'm not sure what was it. but as far as my storage is concern, sure i'd done vegetables. it's the only goods i have in the fridge. i am surprised.
watched some youtube vids.
the rest of the day. i would say... leave it blank. because i'm pretty sure i did my papers and i don't want to stress thinking about it.
read couple of pages and i got unconsciously slept. getting better!
"be kind all the time"
peaceful evening and xoxo!
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 37 | my sister is sick
march 29, 2016. tuesday. it's time to make a change. oh, everyday is a change. this time i wasn't the one who went market. traditional market to be specific. cheaper, fresher and convenient too. not to mention the sanity situation but it doesn't matter.
for the mean time i realized it's been a while i was planning to talk to my parents at home. so i called them. we talked for about 10-15 mins. and it was the best. my mom as always, advising and asking and worrying about me. i love my mom. she doesn't know.
and so, being inspired after talking to mom after a while, i wrote and add up something for my papers. not too much. but i'm running out of time and i'm not doing well with my papers. i feel terrible right now, now that i was just thinking about it.
my sister got sick. she feels throwing up. dizzy and something else. it's her stomach. she drank this boiled celery she believed it's gonna give her a lot of beneficial. i didn't liked the taste. that means, i didn't drink much of it.
while i was in a serious writing and reviewing some of the papers i was working on, i came across this video i loved and i think i will be watching this as much as i can. it's about staying focus and i have to admit that writing this blog is a distraction to me. and i can't beat this one. i committed already.
speaking of distractions, i downloaded two of google apps games. i won't talk much about this subject but in a sense that it is inspiring to me, i should be writing it on my history.
that noon, i took power naps. which means, it gave me soo much energy right after i woke up. and i remember that feeling and i remember that Allah is great.
still on the room. didn't went gym. read more. trying to finish the book. but didn't yet.
the whole night i wrote and read and wrote, and revise and progress.
"time!!!" - treasure it.
i love peace. and so you do. xoxo
for the mean time i realized it's been a while i was planning to talk to my parents at home. so i called them. we talked for about 10-15 mins. and it was the best. my mom as always, advising and asking and worrying about me. i love my mom. she doesn't know.
and so, being inspired after talking to mom after a while, i wrote and add up something for my papers. not too much. but i'm running out of time and i'm not doing well with my papers. i feel terrible right now, now that i was just thinking about it.
my sister got sick. she feels throwing up. dizzy and something else. it's her stomach. she drank this boiled celery she believed it's gonna give her a lot of beneficial. i didn't liked the taste. that means, i didn't drink much of it.
while i was in a serious writing and reviewing some of the papers i was working on, i came across this video i loved and i think i will be watching this as much as i can. it's about staying focus and i have to admit that writing this blog is a distraction to me. and i can't beat this one. i committed already.
speaking of distractions, i downloaded two of google apps games. i won't talk much about this subject but in a sense that it is inspiring to me, i should be writing it on my history.
that noon, i took power naps. which means, it gave me soo much energy right after i woke up. and i remember that feeling and i remember that Allah is great.
still on the room. didn't went gym. read more. trying to finish the book. but didn't yet.
the whole night i wrote and read and wrote, and revise and progress.
"time!!!" - treasure it.
i love peace. and so you do. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 36 | bad idea
march 28, 2016. monday. 1st day of the week. and i'm writing this on tuesday. forgive me, self. i couldn't be more busier than i yesterday. and so let's start breaking down this lists of mine from yesterdays event.
not long after i have done my breakfast, my roommate asked me to send her to where she is doing internship because her brother is not able to send her due to i-don't-really-know-the-whole-detail. and so i sent her and went back giving it (the motorcycle) straight to her brother.
after i went back to my dormitory i am not going to lie but i ate breakfast for the second time around. lol. it really didn't matter to me now that i am just controlling the portion i eat. no longer doing any diet. it's really not the right move for someone who really wants to lose weight and couldn't be consistent at it. and i think i am one of them and so i am trying to do something else rather than restricting myself from eating. easier said, though.
in the middle of my breakfast second part session. i have received a text message that says "where are you, here's my project file" i'm ecstatic. i rushed to her and left my breakfast. talked to her a bit. inspired a bit. and went back to my dormitory.
thanks to her.
reading on some technical writings about my papers i had realized i needed something that could wake me up. oh yes, it's morning and i'm sleepy. not really, i just needed a buddy. i have no one so don't blame me. i'm a loner. accordingly, but i don't felt it that way, thought.
i don't know what should i called this little inventions or should i say experiment of mine. i mixed lemon with my coffee and it blows me off. the taste is awful. and it's a bad idea. my blog title. it's the core of this writing. wosh!
so while i was sipping this crazy awful beverage i have experimented and wouldn't want to offer anyone because they might spit it out and i don't want to see it myself. i was browsing this youtube celebrity i-don't-want-to-mention-his-name but i am pretty sure i can remember his name later on if i came across my blog. but he is hilarious and funny and i am addictive watching him, eventually. i love his videos and i have to stop sometimes because it consumes most of my precious time and i don't want that to happen. moderation pals!
breaking down my lists of outlines about what happened yesterday is not a hard task. i have one of it and it says 'my sister and i decided to run every morning' and that is a pop decision. extreme. and we want to try it out. and let's see what's going to happen.
we went gym anyways. enjoyed it a little bit more. the instructor. she is beautiful and gorgeous and adorable. i can't help it. i needed to say it.
right after that gym. i made my tea. green of course and a friend that is expected to came by for a help. her assignments and exams for the next day. and not too long she left my room. and i'm alone again. and so i did some reading. i love being alone. it's hard to have it especially when you are surrounded by crowed doing nothing but to ask you to go out or do something or eat something. and so if i have this time of the day that they might be in a sleep or finally they cut me loose. i'm the happiest.
but then around 10 pm they're wandering around already. oh gosh. can't do anything. spent sometimes and after that i wrote one blog before sleeping. that's around 12 in the midnight. and then passed out!
"commit yourself"
peace and always, xoxo
not long after i have done my breakfast, my roommate asked me to send her to where she is doing internship because her brother is not able to send her due to i-don't-really-know-the-whole-detail. and so i sent her and went back giving it (the motorcycle) straight to her brother.
after i went back to my dormitory i am not going to lie but i ate breakfast for the second time around. lol. it really didn't matter to me now that i am just controlling the portion i eat. no longer doing any diet. it's really not the right move for someone who really wants to lose weight and couldn't be consistent at it. and i think i am one of them and so i am trying to do something else rather than restricting myself from eating. easier said, though.
in the middle of my breakfast second part session. i have received a text message that says "where are you, here's my project file" i'm ecstatic. i rushed to her and left my breakfast. talked to her a bit. inspired a bit. and went back to my dormitory.
thanks to her.
reading on some technical writings about my papers i had realized i needed something that could wake me up. oh yes, it's morning and i'm sleepy. not really, i just needed a buddy. i have no one so don't blame me. i'm a loner. accordingly, but i don't felt it that way, thought.
i don't know what should i called this little inventions or should i say experiment of mine. i mixed lemon with my coffee and it blows me off. the taste is awful. and it's a bad idea. my blog title. it's the core of this writing. wosh!
so while i was sipping this crazy awful beverage i have experimented and wouldn't want to offer anyone because they might spit it out and i don't want to see it myself. i was browsing this youtube celebrity i-don't-want-to-mention-his-name but i am pretty sure i can remember his name later on if i came across my blog. but he is hilarious and funny and i am addictive watching him, eventually. i love his videos and i have to stop sometimes because it consumes most of my precious time and i don't want that to happen. moderation pals!
breaking down my lists of outlines about what happened yesterday is not a hard task. i have one of it and it says 'my sister and i decided to run every morning' and that is a pop decision. extreme. and we want to try it out. and let's see what's going to happen.
we went gym anyways. enjoyed it a little bit more. the instructor. she is beautiful and gorgeous and adorable. i can't help it. i needed to say it.
right after that gym. i made my tea. green of course and a friend that is expected to came by for a help. her assignments and exams for the next day. and not too long she left my room. and i'm alone again. and so i did some reading. i love being alone. it's hard to have it especially when you are surrounded by crowed doing nothing but to ask you to go out or do something or eat something. and so if i have this time of the day that they might be in a sleep or finally they cut me loose. i'm the happiest.
but then around 10 pm they're wandering around already. oh gosh. can't do anything. spent sometimes and after that i wrote one blog before sleeping. that's around 12 in the midnight. and then passed out!
"commit yourself"
peace and always, xoxo
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 35 | laundry day cont.
march 27, 2016. sunday. time to hang my clothes. oh no. not right in the morning. i need to do something more important than that. if you guessed it then yes, it's BREAKFAST.
did some of the chores. swiping the floor. making my bed. get rid of clutters. generally, cleaning up, boy.
and so the drying up my clothes has come. well, the back and forth process does kinda worked out here. it's at the 3rd floor which is i have to walk through a stairs before reaching the area. it's going to make my body in a good shape, i thought.
had lunch.
meet a filipino fellows. discussed. debated and disgusted at some point. done. went home.
slept around 9 pm.
"mistakes are the best teacher toward oneself" - not a pretty good day for me. but Alhamdulillah i got through it already.
peace and out. xoxo
did some of the chores. swiping the floor. making my bed. get rid of clutters. generally, cleaning up, boy.
and so the drying up my clothes has come. well, the back and forth process does kinda worked out here. it's at the 3rd floor which is i have to walk through a stairs before reaching the area. it's going to make my body in a good shape, i thought.
had lunch.
meet a filipino fellows. discussed. debated and disgusted at some point. done. went home.
slept around 9 pm.
"mistakes are the best teacher toward oneself" - not a pretty good day for me. but Alhamdulillah i got through it already.
peace and out. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 34 | laundry day
march 26, 2016. saturday. lemon water right in the morning. no food no nothing and we hit the gym early in the morning at 6:30 am. very motivated. applause me. haha.
making my pancake around 0900 for the intention of energy intake. im washing my laundry today. my pile of clothes. if haven't mentioned from my last blogs, i used to have pile of mountain before i'll realize i am running out of clothes to wear. my epiphany.
during the night, i decided to finish up my clothes i soaked on water with detergent. and while waiting, i didn't freed my time doing nothing. i sketch a human head. and another one. and another one. and uh-oh, i spent 2 hours sketching random things. i just got carried away. it's one of my hobby, though.
so before sleeping. i finished up all the laundry. this is so embarrassing. laundry all night.
"be patient, everything will change for the better" - not the laundry issue.
peaceful night. xoxo
making my pancake around 0900 for the intention of energy intake. im washing my laundry today. my pile of clothes. if haven't mentioned from my last blogs, i used to have pile of mountain before i'll realize i am running out of clothes to wear. my epiphany.
during the night, i decided to finish up my clothes i soaked on water with detergent. and while waiting, i didn't freed my time doing nothing. i sketch a human head. and another one. and another one. and uh-oh, i spent 2 hours sketching random things. i just got carried away. it's one of my hobby, though.
so before sleeping. i finished up all the laundry. this is so embarrassing. laundry all night.
"be patient, everything will change for the better" - not the laundry issue.
peaceful night. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 33 | forgotten
march 25, 2016. friday. i don't remember a thing. this is unbelievable. i am in a cafe right now. and this slow music is hitting on me. no lyrics but i can feel the vibes behind it.
and because i can't remember anything other than i prayed for friday prayer, let me just leave my thought blank for this blog.
-edited insertion-
we went somewhere with my sister and a couple of friends. and it rain so heavy. and we're stuck in a masjed. we waited. and we ate at a restaurant all together. fantastic menu. everyone loved it. we went back around 9 pm. a bit of tired and i don't have to say what happened next here.
-edited insertion ends here-
"reminding has beneficial" - a quranic version
peace and out and love yourself for the sake of gratitude. xoxo
and because i can't remember anything other than i prayed for friday prayer, let me just leave my thought blank for this blog.
-edited insertion-
we went somewhere with my sister and a couple of friends. and it rain so heavy. and we're stuck in a masjed. we waited. and we ate at a restaurant all together. fantastic menu. everyone loved it. we went back around 9 pm. a bit of tired and i don't have to say what happened next here.
-edited insertion ends here-
"reminding has beneficial" - a quranic version
peace and out and love yourself for the sake of gratitude. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 32 | spiritual water
march 24, 2016. thursday. i titled this blog as spirit water because of this.
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| my all time water gym buddy |
i was drunk. 2 rounds of galons in 1.2 ml volume size. bottoms up. a little after 7 am, i was already having my breakfast with my morning routine that's not really new, my pancake.
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| pancake on it's small size version |
i'm gonna miss this. i swear i promise. and i'll move on and try another new. we'll see.
my friend asked me to send her to bus station and if i do so, i can have her motorcycle till she's back in town.
and if there's a motor cycle around. that means, there's a plan to go out of town. a couple of friends, my sister and i went to this place where you can pick an apple right from it's tree. tadaa! it's an apple farm.
what is so exciting about going somewhere isn't really about the place. it's the journey. when i am driving, it's just totally a happiness for me. i don't know. but, i feel fabulous if i have to put it in words. unfortunately, it rained. and we can't get inside the farm. we will get wet. the apple farm adventure(and probably selfie) had cancelled.
so we went back and as what i have said earlier. it's not really the place. it's the journey. we stopped by at the apple vendors beside the road and we bought some, just to have an apples at hand and so we could share it to our dorm mates.
half way, the rain goes heavy. we stopped by again for lunch and after the rain had stopped, we hit the road again. this time, i can't drive. the road is wet and it's my biggest fear.
we have arrived at the campus and so took a rest a bit.
everybody agreed to look for wifi that night and we went to this place since there's the motorcycle available to be used, why not take advantage of it.
we only have 1 hour to stay at that restaurant. as if we don't know they've giving us limit to stay because of our prolong habitual stay. just because it's not crowded and the wifi is pretty awesome.
after a rush downloads. the time has come and we need to leave the place. i needed to download. i'm greedy. and i want wifi more than i want food.
we head back dormitory.
prayed and unconsciously fell asleep. realizing i haven't changed my last night outfit after waking up the next day.
"don't party when you don't have the reason to" - nailed it.
stay awesome. peace and out! xoxo
my friend asked me to send her to bus station and if i do so, i can have her motorcycle till she's back in town.
and if there's a motor cycle around. that means, there's a plan to go out of town. a couple of friends, my sister and i went to this place where you can pick an apple right from it's tree. tadaa! it's an apple farm.
what is so exciting about going somewhere isn't really about the place. it's the journey. when i am driving, it's just totally a happiness for me. i don't know. but, i feel fabulous if i have to put it in words. unfortunately, it rained. and we can't get inside the farm. we will get wet. the apple farm adventure(and probably selfie) had cancelled.
so we went back and as what i have said earlier. it's not really the place. it's the journey. we stopped by at the apple vendors beside the road and we bought some, just to have an apples at hand and so we could share it to our dorm mates.
half way, the rain goes heavy. we stopped by again for lunch and after the rain had stopped, we hit the road again. this time, i can't drive. the road is wet and it's my biggest fear.
we have arrived at the campus and so took a rest a bit.
everybody agreed to look for wifi that night and we went to this place since there's the motorcycle available to be used, why not take advantage of it.
we only have 1 hour to stay at that restaurant. as if we don't know they've giving us limit to stay because of our prolong habitual stay. just because it's not crowded and the wifi is pretty awesome.
after a rush downloads. the time has come and we need to leave the place. i needed to download. i'm greedy. and i want wifi more than i want food.
we head back dormitory.
prayed and unconsciously fell asleep. realizing i haven't changed my last night outfit after waking up the next day.
"don't party when you don't have the reason to" - nailed it.
stay awesome. peace and out! xoxo
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 31 | 30 mins shopping
march 23, 2016. wednesday. i didn't went to class. my sister and i needed to buy groceries.
pancake saves me every morning. it's a thing. without pancake i'll be lying dead on bed. and i am exaggerating.
getting through morning. my sister and i got a motor available for only 30 mins long. that's not even long. that's the shortest time you could get when borrowing a motor cycle plus the shopping hour. oh no. not even an hour. we rushed. like we're on a challenge reality tv show. you need to finish a task in a small period of time.
we made it to the nearest mall we could approach. 10-15 mins rushing and chucking on items. it was morning so it wasn't really crowded.
and we're done.
i gave back the to the owner and i realized we are late 5 mins long. huff! alright. time saver. i ate some sandwich bread for my lunch. then do some writing of my papers afterwards (i'm still on college). helped out a friend translating her project.
aerobic. gym. realized something while waiting. and the thoughts i had were just a bomb. and i don't think i can make it elaborate in here. i'll make another blog for it separately inshaAllah.
right after maghrib(evening prayer). we went to meet our fellows to discuss some important matters. filipinos. and i didn't really like this meet up. something tells me, this is not right. i don't know if it was just my mood of not wanting to talk to anyone at that night or it's just the ambience. people. things around. and whatnot except me. lol
we came back. and what i did was exactly the opposite of what was i thinking. and that is to read something for my papers. research. oh great. i watch a couple of youtube videos to cheer me up but nope, it didn't worked out. and i passed out. bad. i mean, bed.
"be yourself" - eating those pasta.
peace and out! xoxo
pancake saves me every morning. it's a thing. without pancake i'll be lying dead on bed. and i am exaggerating.
getting through morning. my sister and i got a motor available for only 30 mins long. that's not even long. that's the shortest time you could get when borrowing a motor cycle plus the shopping hour. oh no. not even an hour. we rushed. like we're on a challenge reality tv show. you need to finish a task in a small period of time.
we made it to the nearest mall we could approach. 10-15 mins rushing and chucking on items. it was morning so it wasn't really crowded.
and we're done.
i gave back the to the owner and i realized we are late 5 mins long. huff! alright. time saver. i ate some sandwich bread for my lunch. then do some writing of my papers afterwards (i'm still on college). helped out a friend translating her project.
aerobic. gym. realized something while waiting. and the thoughts i had were just a bomb. and i don't think i can make it elaborate in here. i'll make another blog for it separately inshaAllah.
right after maghrib(evening prayer). we went to meet our fellows to discuss some important matters. filipinos. and i didn't really like this meet up. something tells me, this is not right. i don't know if it was just my mood of not wanting to talk to anyone at that night or it's just the ambience. people. things around. and whatnot except me. lol
we came back. and what i did was exactly the opposite of what was i thinking. and that is to read something for my papers. research. oh great. i watch a couple of youtube videos to cheer me up but nope, it didn't worked out. and i passed out. bad. i mean, bed.
"be yourself" - eating those pasta.
peace and out! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 30 | lazy day
march 22, 2016. tuesday. and it is exactly 2151 at the evening. not really that sleepy that is why i'm writing this blog on time. and at the same time. while waiting for this wifi to work well without interruptions, because it really drives me crazy waiting and staring and clicking. not a good habit to develop so i'd rather type some words for you and for me and the entire human race. haha! michael jackson's.
i kind of always sing words. i'm weird. i know.
so i got up this morning. as always. i'm so proud of myself and not at the same time. i spent the whole 2 hours watching this youtuber in the video. but it wasn't my fault. it was the wifi that goes crazy faster than usual. so i ran to this videos and it doesn't buffer. so the awesome me, clicked here and there.
the sun raised up and i to did. made a pancake. for me. because nobody woken up so i can share my crucial pancake..
i'm so hype tonight(during the writing) and i still can't figure out why i do. i'll say it to my next blog if i finally realize what is this fuss all about. but for now, nothing is coming out of my brain. why oh why. no reason, i promise, no nothing. i think this is just the after math of this empty mug beside me. which was full of coffee 20 mins ago. i bet.
"time that's gone, is gone forever" i'm not sure i had mentioned this from my last blogs. but anyway. i just want to remind my myself. because myself always forget. things.
peace out! love lots! xoxo
i kind of always sing words. i'm weird. i know.
so i got up this morning. as always. i'm so proud of myself and not at the same time. i spent the whole 2 hours watching this youtuber in the video. but it wasn't my fault. it was the wifi that goes crazy faster than usual. so i ran to this videos and it doesn't buffer. so the awesome me, clicked here and there.
the sun raised up and i to did. made a pancake. for me. because nobody woken up so i can share my crucial pancake..
i'm so hype tonight(during the writing) and i still can't figure out why i do. i'll say it to my next blog if i finally realize what is this fuss all about. but for now, nothing is coming out of my brain. why oh why. no reason, i promise, no nothing. i think this is just the after math of this empty mug beside me. which was full of coffee 20 mins ago. i bet.
"time that's gone, is gone forever" i'm not sure i had mentioned this from my last blogs. but anyway. i just want to remind my myself. because myself always forget. things.
peace out! love lots! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 29 | missed a call
march 21, 2016. monday. bread with egg. just to have a breakfast. a great fight between reading and sleeping. ha! there you go. i'm not sleeping. imagine all of them were asleep. i guess i was just experiencing past old mornings. but hey, everyday is a new day.
like this one. i had picked up a call from an old friend. she invited us for a meeting in our old university, back then when my sister and i are still learning indonesian language. so we went and got to met our old family kind of. we brought our chinese friend along so she could see and probably wander around the campus. not so surprisingly, she met her fellow, a chinese. talk a bit and then i have to cut their converse because we only have limited time to go back to our campus. if it's meant to be, they'll meet each other in the future. don't worry.
we ate our lunch. normal. rice. and i'm not gonna say other details. i felt the guilt.
we went back to our dormitory. made some smoothie and read more. crucial.
my sister told me during that afternoon that my parents were looking for me and that they want to check on me if i am doing well. i checked my phone and i saw a missed call on my log and yes, i missed the calls which is actually their first attempt is to talk with me rather than my little sister. but sorry mom/dad, i will make it up to you next time. and i should promise. mmm promise.
around magrib... skipping the exercise we did. that is almost an everyday activity so i thought it would be fine to put it out sometimes. so, we went to find this restaurant. and i thank God i am still able to live right now and write. i still remember that nerve and goose bumps happened to me during the search for that restaurant. it's a sky bridge. and it is shallow. and humps are like a meter distances at each other. and you can actually see the roofs of the houses right under your feet. dark and flat roofs. and there's a lot of motorcycles coming by and across. i was holding my breath till the we pass off of the bridge.
it was breath taking and at the same time fantastic experience.
i don't know if it was just me. or my driver got used to that way and she never made an expression.
"do what you think is right".
peace out! joy and love! xoxo
like this one. i had picked up a call from an old friend. she invited us for a meeting in our old university, back then when my sister and i are still learning indonesian language. so we went and got to met our old family kind of. we brought our chinese friend along so she could see and probably wander around the campus. not so surprisingly, she met her fellow, a chinese. talk a bit and then i have to cut their converse because we only have limited time to go back to our campus. if it's meant to be, they'll meet each other in the future. don't worry.
we ate our lunch. normal. rice. and i'm not gonna say other details. i felt the guilt.
we went back to our dormitory. made some smoothie and read more. crucial.
my sister told me during that afternoon that my parents were looking for me and that they want to check on me if i am doing well. i checked my phone and i saw a missed call on my log and yes, i missed the calls which is actually their first attempt is to talk with me rather than my little sister. but sorry mom/dad, i will make it up to you next time. and i should promise. mmm promise.
around magrib... skipping the exercise we did. that is almost an everyday activity so i thought it would be fine to put it out sometimes. so, we went to find this restaurant. and i thank God i am still able to live right now and write. i still remember that nerve and goose bumps happened to me during the search for that restaurant. it's a sky bridge. and it is shallow. and humps are like a meter distances at each other. and you can actually see the roofs of the houses right under your feet. dark and flat roofs. and there's a lot of motorcycles coming by and across. i was holding my breath till the we pass off of the bridge.
it was breath taking and at the same time fantastic experience.
i don't know if it was just me. or my driver got used to that way and she never made an expression.
"do what you think is right".
peace out! joy and love! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 28 | received a message
march 20, 2016. sunday. my alarm clock rang before the dawn prayer. i went to pray and wait. wait. and wait more. the blue sky is now lining the sky. not dark enough to see through our kitchen. we have a broken bulb. and that is why i needed to wait till darkness fade and brightness took place.
had my breakfast. alone. still hanged over from yesterdays tiredness and so i spent my whole day roaming around and didn't do that much.
oh sunday.
"appreciate everything" - include sundays.
xoxo
had my breakfast. alone. still hanged over from yesterdays tiredness and so i spent my whole day roaming around and didn't do that much.
oh sunday.
"appreciate everything" - include sundays.
xoxo
Friday, April 15, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 27 | i became a parents
march 19, 2016. saturday. unusual morning. and the reason why is because as what i have said from my last blog it's a very important day, to my friends and for me to.
celebrating this day for them and i couldn't be more proud for them, making it together. not me. probably joining the next batch. graduation. yey!
cookies and coffee i did for a quick breakfast preparation. i needed to dress up. i am having a role as a parents for this day. since we are all in the same situation, i mean no significant others here and i mean here biological family, it has been an agreement that whoever gets the need of having an attendance of a family member, others will fulfill the compulsory and i, this time is get the role. perfect. now i need to find some decent clothes for me to put on a casual look. i did and i guess it's a fun experience. end of story.
celebrating this day for them and i couldn't be more proud for them, making it together. not me. probably joining the next batch. graduation. yey!
cookies and coffee i did for a quick breakfast preparation. i needed to dress up. i am having a role as a parents for this day. since we are all in the same situation, i mean no significant others here and i mean here biological family, it has been an agreement that whoever gets the need of having an attendance of a family member, others will fulfill the compulsory and i, this time is get the role. perfect. now i need to find some decent clothes for me to put on a casual look. i did and i guess it's a fun experience. end of story.
what happens after the graduation ceremony? not this time, it isn't a party. it is actually a slumber party. and i don't mean partying literally. what i mean here, exhaustion after the long waiting of this ceremony causes everyone to sleep carelessly everywhere. i got up after sometimes, though. that's why i had witnessed the mess and the clutters here and there.
at the end of the day, i was thankful it ended finally.
"thanks God for everything"
xoxo
at the end of the day, i was thankful it ended finally.
"thanks God for everything"
xoxo
Thursday, April 14, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 26 | tomorrow
march 18, 2016. friday. my alam clock rang before the dawn prayer and then i waited for the blue sky to take place over the horizon. precious times are always precious.
bright enough to see through our kitchen, i started my morning breakfast preparation. boil a hot water. mixing my pancake ingredients. table's arrangement. chair. and my book. waiting for 6:30 to come.
it's friday and we are doing our gym in the morning. why because tomorrow morning we won't be able to. something else has to be done and it will be mention on my next blog, inshaAllah.
for the lunch. i didn't cook this time. somebody did but i'm not sure who and what i can remember is we ate all together like a group. and it's like eating during a party. everybody's spoon is on their hands and scooping here and there. i had so much fun.
this moments are unforgettable. mkay! exaggerate!
not so much for the afternoon. i guess it's just the preparations for tomorrows event.
and for the evening. some of us are just so busy for something important that's going to happen for their life. and again, tomorrow.
"end is just another beginning"
night yow peaceful. xoxo
bright enough to see through our kitchen, i started my morning breakfast preparation. boil a hot water. mixing my pancake ingredients. table's arrangement. chair. and my book. waiting for 6:30 to come.
it's friday and we are doing our gym in the morning. why because tomorrow morning we won't be able to. something else has to be done and it will be mention on my next blog, inshaAllah.
for the lunch. i didn't cook this time. somebody did but i'm not sure who and what i can remember is we ate all together like a group. and it's like eating during a party. everybody's spoon is on their hands and scooping here and there. i had so much fun.
this moments are unforgettable. mkay! exaggerate!
not so much for the afternoon. i guess it's just the preparations for tomorrows event.
and for the evening. some of us are just so busy for something important that's going to happen for their life. and again, tomorrow.
"end is just another beginning"
night yow peaceful. xoxo
Monday, April 11, 2016
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 25 | my passport
march 17, 2016. thursday. and i'm writing this on saturday morning. what a mess! i feel sorry for myself for not being consistent. and now i have to recall what had happened during this day.
let's start. i woke up in the morning from another room. yes. i remember waking up with shocked realizing i passed out not knowingly taking other's bed. well, i guess we are living in one building and so, it's just part of it. we own everything and everywhere.
i had done my breakfast and i'm on my couch. reading.
so it was my cellphone lost issue. my friend and i went to my cellular provider, i call it. it is a center where they serve you anything about your subscription number. because it's not really the cellphone is the issue here. it was my contacts. i've been carrying this number for almost 4 years since i came indonesia, and it will be a huge change if all of a sudden i will change it. so the service center sort of relocate my number into a new simcard. awesome. i had no idea this was possible.
we didn't went to gym. instead we went to see our friend that's based around town. had a little bit of talk and coffee. ended around 5pm.
that night my friends and i went out to hangout somewhere and we found a convenient store not by choice.
we headed back right after a bit of snacks and short talks.
i didn't do much after that. just a preparations in engaging bed. lol. and i alhamdulillah, i had a very good night sleep.
"never leave a day without doing something awesome"
awesome and peace. xoxo
let's start. i woke up in the morning from another room. yes. i remember waking up with shocked realizing i passed out not knowingly taking other's bed. well, i guess we are living in one building and so, it's just part of it. we own everything and everywhere.
i had done my breakfast and i'm on my couch. reading.
so it was my cellphone lost issue. my friend and i went to my cellular provider, i call it. it is a center where they serve you anything about your subscription number. because it's not really the cellphone is the issue here. it was my contacts. i've been carrying this number for almost 4 years since i came indonesia, and it will be a huge change if all of a sudden i will change it. so the service center sort of relocate my number into a new simcard. awesome. i had no idea this was possible.
we didn't went to gym. instead we went to see our friend that's based around town. had a little bit of talk and coffee. ended around 5pm.
that night my friends and i went out to hangout somewhere and we found a convenient store not by choice.
we headed back right after a bit of snacks and short talks.
i didn't do much after that. just a preparations in engaging bed. lol. and i alhamdulillah, i had a very good night sleep.
"never leave a day without doing something awesome"
awesome and peace. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 24 | upstairs
march 16, 2016. wednesday. this time. i took cookies with my black coffee morning. perfect. i mean really. i want to miss my pancake sometimes.
i entitled this blog 'upstairs' because when i thought of it, half of this day, i spent it upstairs. it's a place between a two stairs going up and the other one is going down. sort of like that. i hope i had put it in a right word picturing it out. don't really know how to explain it exactly. but anyway i call it like that because it's going upstairs. enough about it. but it's a quiet place where you can sit there for an hours and hours and nobody could distract you.
and just like i said. no distractions so, what happened was, uh-oh 5-6 hours of reading my book. it's bad. i spent 6 hours. non-stop. it's insane. i know. 3 hours was the longest time i spent reading a book from very recent. and i think if i have time. i'll do it again.
late lunch after a visit to one the university. shortly after reaching dormitory. i've realize my mini-phone was missing. i've lost it. didn't really need the phone but the number per se. my contacts were there. urgh! it's a mess! i waited for the next day if ever there is still some kind of a pure and kind-hearted person picked it up for me or found it and think it's better to give it back to the owner and not applying the sayings 'founder's keepers'.
"let it go" it's it.
for peaceful sake. xoxo
i entitled this blog 'upstairs' because when i thought of it, half of this day, i spent it upstairs. it's a place between a two stairs going up and the other one is going down. sort of like that. i hope i had put it in a right word picturing it out. don't really know how to explain it exactly. but anyway i call it like that because it's going upstairs. enough about it. but it's a quiet place where you can sit there for an hours and hours and nobody could distract you.
and just like i said. no distractions so, what happened was, uh-oh 5-6 hours of reading my book. it's bad. i spent 6 hours. non-stop. it's insane. i know. 3 hours was the longest time i spent reading a book from very recent. and i think if i have time. i'll do it again.
late lunch after a visit to one the university. shortly after reaching dormitory. i've realize my mini-phone was missing. i've lost it. didn't really need the phone but the number per se. my contacts were there. urgh! it's a mess! i waited for the next day if ever there is still some kind of a pure and kind-hearted person picked it up for me or found it and think it's better to give it back to the owner and not applying the sayings 'founder's keepers'.
"let it go" it's it.
for peaceful sake. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 23 | the change
march 15, 2016. tuesday. had an awesome morning breakfast. sandwich spread with one of them fellas. others. sleeping. urgh! it's so annoying. the silence is equivalent to the thoughts of annoyance a bit. why people sleeps in the morning? hah! the answer? nah. it's just me. not them. everyone sees everything differently. so i just thought i have to respect differences. but it's hard you know. it's still unreasonable to sleep at mornings. for me. not unless you are sick.
sitting alone. working on my papers. writing. reading. and yes. a little of this. blog drafts. if something pops into my mind. i directly open up my notepad and type it. a friend of mine with me. helping me understand some things i might needed to add up for my paper. and one more thing. i don't know if i can solve "this" another problem. i could scream so loud but it doesn't really count. i should do it on my own.
and here i am alone again. trying to review what happened right after i wrote the last paragraph above. what happened after i packed my laptop and bag were disappointing. our ENC room is gone. the whole floor of the building is renovating. the only thing we have saved were the books and the electric wall fans.
we went to gym and me in not my best mood tried to put it all up during the dance session. my focus is not on the steps but on the things i have been thinking since morning.
oh i hate this feelings. Allah help me!
it's 2343 in the evening and i just didn't want to miss this blog so i don't have to worry about it tomorrow.
done.
"your life is the product of your thoughts" - don't be sad. book.
peace out! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 22 | hopeful
march 14, 2016. monday. i wasn't sure if i slept genuinely last night. i did a nap on the other room last night and didn't know it wasn't really going to be a nap.
terrible apparently because i slept until dawn. realized it when i suddenly open my eyes and jumped out of the bed because of the visible dark blue sky over the door glass and oh crap i have to go back to my real bed. but it's already too late. it's morning.
i made a pancake. not really my ideal one but it worked out on my empty stomach. it's my healthies food for a day. i needed it. nobody is allowed to object on this one.
in fact. you'll get in trouble if you do.
around 10am. i wore a suit. wasn't my best but it worked out on me. i will be meeting a friend. after sometimes of waiting her. she can't make the meet up. so i took off the "suit".
throughout afternoon, i was reading some articles on google. my bad habit. i know.
going back and forth on my working area.
i'm writing this live. and i hope i can upload it right away. it's going to be depending on my internet connection. and oh, i am currently downloading some videos. and
while waiting. i'll be up for the night and watch some of my favorite youtubers.
to everyone, "love one another".
peace and out. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 21 | staying
march 13, 2016. sunday. morning. i had received the message that the seminar was cancelled. now, what to do? i turned my laptop on. and did some readings. i didn't want to sleep that morning. while everyone around me are in slumber. dept into their sleeps. to think it was morning. but yeah, sunday. if not going out. then going to sleep.
i read until noon time. read afternoon. and read again on the evening. and finished the book. crazy. i started it last two days ago. and i don't know if i read it faster than i thought? or i was just being so hard to myself with the feeling of reading one book a day. no, that's just impossible. with all the chores and other things i needed to do in a day. it's just so impossible for me to attain reading one book in one day.
the excitement of reading a book when you are about to start the first chapter. you are about to enter a world. and get out of it when you reach the end of its page.
"me before you" by jojo moyes. done and listed on my 100 books i've read. well, there's lot more books to read. i can't be celebrating.
passed out early at 10pm.
"never settle for average" excellence bruh bruhhs.
peace and out. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 20 | Cake
march 12, 2016. saturday. i was told 3 days before this day, there will be a guesting for a highschool institute. the scenario will be i will be a speaker motivator. not that i am qualified to, but let's just say, my path. in the future. lol. inshaAllah.
we went to gym first thing in the morning. but we have reached the gym uncrowded. so we went on a convenient store and grab some food. light breakfast. for a store up energy. we did our aerobic for an hour.
we head back to our dormitory and made some real breakfast.
going back to where i started this blog. it's about an invitation from a friend. she booked for my saturday and sunday. so you know what that means? all weekend plans are cancelled. but really? i waited till the afternoon. and evening and the next morning. finally she broke it to me that the seminar was cancelled without letting me know the information, for God sake i would have done so many things during this day not just wiating for nothing. anyway, i have continue reading my book. while waiting.
oh cake. the title of this blog. so i was reading. reading and reading. then on the afternoon our chinese friend came over with cake. for others, it was a blessing. for me, a challenge. but i didn't refuse it. instead. i eat a whole slice of it. i don't mind. i crave for it. but she was bringing a huge one. and she's still offering for another more piece of it. it's hard to say no and crap i did say no for another bite. indulging myself reading my book. until the cake disappeared. then i realized, why it was being place right in front of me? temptation.
"Dream Big" please.
peace and out! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 19 | Podcasts
march 11, 2016. friday. last night's hangover from sleeping too late. had to finish some tasks. and i'm thankful. accomplished before 3 am. super late. and the result. i didn't made it to 4:30 am. lame. i am. well, i always called myself irresponsible whenever i couldn't make it early. waking up. anyone who is going to disagree. then don't. if i don't train myself then who. nobody. and by the way it's friday. it's an important day.
so i did a carrot pancake this time. and they loved it. again. i am not sure, though. but if it's edible, then somehow someone is going to undertake it. if none. then i think i will be the one who is going to take it down. love your own work. on positive thinking.
somewhere in 1100. i found myself looking for something to listen to. and i found the old podcasts i downloaded last year. i'm glad i still have them. so i played it and listen through out the noon.
the rain pours down. and my appointment for today will be cancelled i assumed. and yes as it supposed to. we went to gym that afternoon. after the gym and got back to dormitory i found my phone on the pocket of my bag soak in water because of the rain. great sadness.
because of exhaustion. i went to bed so early. ignoring my friends invition for movie watching.
"be a benefit to mankind" heard from a podcast.
peace and out! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 18 | chocolate coffee
march 10, 2016. thursday. i'm glad i made it today. changes aren't really happening. but i still kept my morning organized as much as i can. no getting back to bed.
there's still more important things to do. so i might get myself intact not to lose to-do lists and mess up everything.
this morning. i watch some of the videos that are important to me. i won't give you details about it. but it is something i needed for myself to keep it improving. i am praying for everyone's success through this life and the hereafter. ameen.
this blog, i'm just going to give some thoughts about something. let's say about watching movies. since i don't really remember exactly what did i do. probably watched some movies with friends. and somehow you thought you wasted your time. but if i look at the positive side. i'm learning from movies. something you could do both entertainment and observation and if we could contemplate with it. it is actually beneficial.
didn't read so much this day. i spent most of my time organizing my things around the room. i cooked and we all eat. i'm not sure if i did it right. they ate it. and i'm glad. if my sister is around. no food shall go to waste. she's a monster eater.
had an appointment for tomorrow friday. if in case it will rain. i don't think i will make a word.
"in life. you can teach yourself"
peace to everyone. xoxo
there's still more important things to do. so i might get myself intact not to lose to-do lists and mess up everything.
this morning. i watch some of the videos that are important to me. i won't give you details about it. but it is something i needed for myself to keep it improving. i am praying for everyone's success through this life and the hereafter. ameen.
this blog, i'm just going to give some thoughts about something. let's say about watching movies. since i don't really remember exactly what did i do. probably watched some movies with friends. and somehow you thought you wasted your time. but if i look at the positive side. i'm learning from movies. something you could do both entertainment and observation and if we could contemplate with it. it is actually beneficial.
didn't read so much this day. i spent most of my time organizing my things around the room. i cooked and we all eat. i'm not sure if i did it right. they ate it. and i'm glad. if my sister is around. no food shall go to waste. she's a monster eater.
had an appointment for tomorrow friday. if in case it will rain. i don't think i will make a word.
"in life. you can teach yourself"
peace to everyone. xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 17 | Arabic Song by maher zain
march 10, 2016. wednesday. red date. kind of. but not to me. everyone is talking about the solar eclipse and those things. sun. moon. offering of prayer. what's new is, there's no gym. it's off. received a notice message before i prepared to go in the morning to do some work out.
changed plan. slept back a little bit. but frankly speaking. i didn't like what i did there. but it felt like a little less guilt because everyone around me is in depth of their sleep unlike me, scared of knocking my self out because of some obligations i needed to fulfill during this day.
so i got up. straight to kitchen. did my morning routine.
arabic song by maher zain i entitle this blog because this day i had my vocal on practice. haha. kidding. my thai friends are going to perform a song dedicated for their senior's farewell party. and i got interested at the song they're about to sing on that occasion. it's maher zain's. supreb. the beats. the meaning. and maher's mashaAllah's voice. fantastic. he is always been, though.
so no gym today. not so great.
around 1800. friends and i went to have an internet. and there's only one place to be where wifi is the fastest and a perfect place to hangout. we spent there a couple of hours then decided to go back to dormitory. really some important stuffs from internet. i downloaded some lecture videos and some related for my study thesis and whatnot.
i started to write this around 2400 in the midnight and alhamdulillah. i have made it on time.
"it's always seems impossible until it's done" nelson mandela.
goodnight. peace! xoxo
Daily Blog Challenge | Day 16 | TEDx with Praya Lundberg
march 8, 2016. tuesday. another plain day to me again. morning routine. my special personal recipe pancake. and of course my black coffee. delayed by the way because i tried a lemon water intake before anything else. and try to make it constant inshaAllah.
through lunch time. my friends and i are having good times talking and teasing each other until i sat down on one corner and found myself trolling on youtube.
TEDx channel. one of my favorite place on youtube.
on praya lundberg. she talks about her life story, her job and what made her keep motivated and inspired. she talks about being grateful and how we are so lucky for being able to have a proper education. she is inspirational. and she just gained my respect.
that afternoon. we went to aerobic.
grab a frozen sweet potato i've boiled at the morning. ate it to survive the night. not having much time to prepare a food.
i washed my clothes. arranged clutters on my space. i have three places to deal with. my bed. my closet and my work space. trying to keep everything organize. well, i just don't want to free my time.
slept around 1100. just the expected time i set out to.
"have a sense of purpose" glanced at my wall quoted by nak.
peace to out everyone! xoxo
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