10:00PM

hey soulmate, 

you are not here, but you are.

i connect with you, even from a far.

our talks were out of these world,

you reflect on every bet of my word.

can’t cut lose, i’m trying to focus.

the comfort in every conversation

is now a lifetime discomfort

how heavy it is to carry on

pressured to live as time goes on

a roommate, a close friend, a mentor,

those who i’ve seen with a sense of humor

that someone with all the sarcastic comments

is now part of my intellectual habits

i’m not a poet

but that is not the point

just taking a moment

in being in the present

because i know

that in my silent moment

i am grateful for the past

i hold it like a glass

…unbroken

and hey, i love who i am.

i share it with whom i love.

the past may be a distraction

accepting the present's imperfection

an only way i can guarantee

bringing it to today is my cup of tea.

-

again, i am not a poet. i have written many of these. but never published, nor re-read. one thing i know for sure, a soulmate is a connection, a mutual understanding, a trust, a comfort, and a compatibility.

it's 10:00pm. goodnight soulmate. <3 

it all depends on you

nothing stays the same, your body can heal. your life can change. you may not see it or feel it but changes happens when you change perspective. you can be sick and people will tell you are sick. you change that when you let your body heal itself. if nature cannot make it, nothing will . your house will always full of clutter if you think it should always be like that. 

…then you clean up😊 

what happens to the clutter? organized. 

what happens to the sick body? healed.

people(plural) tell me how am i doing it?(hiking up a mountain) you are ill, you are weak, you could get cold, your sickness could get worse. that’s their minds telling them that if they climb up the mountain, they will get sick. i tell my mind that if i move and keep going i’ll see how far i can go(God speed). 

yes there is limit but there is no limit when you put God first. 

Love, J

rollin’ in a deep

feb 25, 2025

bismillah. 

we’re rolling again.

things had happened. i wish i could write this on a paper, but things had changed. after so many years, i get to write again. i know i will somehow put off writing because life is happening and i havent sat around and think to myself ‘aah, another topic to write’.

it’s indescribable. 

writing this on a plane because it’s an 8 hour flight and what better way to use your time while everyone has dozed off. plus, i am very excited to remind you and myself that whatever happens, it’s for the best. also, it comes with how you deal with what is happening. no matter what is going on, please always be considerate of others specially to yourself. if it hurts you, forgive them but forgive yourself first. and as i am writing this, i could think of a person that would’ve handle situation and made it to chaos. 

one advice i could give to others - because this has worked for me already - is that, if you are in a complicated situation, LEAVE IT. dont try to fix it. understand it. let it be and let it wait. otherwise you’re just trying to show off. you can’t fix a situation. you can only spectate and understand. if you are involve, try to avoid participating that much. it will only add complications to it. let it be, just let it be and let yourself out of it COMPLETELY.

you are much more than proving that you are right.

you are better than how they do you wrong.

you are not ignoring them, you are watering down the situation.

it’s okay if you made a wrong decision. you can forget about it and move on. life will fix it for you, in time. because life will always want you to win.

please remember that.

love you all. J