over the past few years, things kept changing, at least to me. occupations, places, people, principles, opinion etc. but things with the memory i had with people and places aren’t changeable. one of the reason i write about this is that, these things just won’t fade away… and sometimes it’s overwhelming. i am confused with the thought of - should i be sad that i had experienced something a person could wish for and then one moment you’re in your own head just so you can think about it over and over again because you aren’t in those moment anymore?
starring at my wallet i bought in malaysia for 300 ringgits reminds me that i was somehow an idiot. i could get lesser price than that but i was at that moment a splurge? new word, an act of spending money freely or extravagantly. (btw i am trying to use easy words as much as i can, i don’t have audience, haha)
well, it lasted 4 years without any damages. it is as good as new. not to brag about it but those wrong decisions we thought we’ve done? those aren’t really wrong. it meant to happen. the food you ordered and didn’t liked the taste back then? it’s suppose to happen. the new shirt you fell off(not mine) in the middle of the highway on a paper bag? - should never forget that. the time you spend with people you never liked? be thankful for it. the nice things you thought about people but turned out you were wrong, and vice versa? sighed.
now that i am not in those operating life i had. i am trying to impress myself by thinking “wows had happened to me”, rather than, i wish i could go back. i could lists an endless things that i’ll never forget from my past years but these ones are outstanding…
- my sister and i, flew to indonesia as a scholarship grant.
- learning bahasa indonesia with our first indonesian family in the university.
- having a russian roommate for nearly 5 years living together.
- additional madagascar next door dorm mate.
- got to know a somali girl and her traditions
- deep conversations with a chinese girl
- gym, fitness
- learnt how to ride motorcycle
- jogjakarta
- kicked for a while in taekwondo
- learnt badminton (and still learning)
- penanggungan adventure
- university campus
- university professors who inspires me to keep going
- malaysia and all of it (job, stuff, ERL, people, travel, lunch tribe)
- nuree
it went too fast. it’s just too fast.
for that, alhamdulillah and the next life ahead!
J
