January 3, 2023 - New Year, Manila

in frustration to go home. a sarcastic friend of mine said who is taking flights on new year's? well, us! and we’re stuck in manila.

 

here i am. wanting to complain everything since we got here in manila. but having to think of kuala lumpur trip before all this mess makes everything perfect. 

instead of thinking of our misfortune. let me remind myself of all the good things happen to us. because complains won’t solve it. we did everything we could. but we can’t go against nature. 

day one in kuala lumpur, alhamdulillah. i am back again. but with company. my friend and my little sister. 

everything started at the plane take off. that feeling when i know i’ll be in kl at any moment. those people in the aircraft, knowing that they will be walking with us through arrival hall way. i couldn’t contain my feeling. it’s all warm and feeling myself again. not saying i don’t like being in my country. i am saying that traveling is more than home for me. especially meeting old friends. 

there is something in traveling/flights that puts me in another level of good wholesome being. only God knows. and i thank Him for letting me feel it again. it’s all in Him. 

so we arrived at our destination, a residential unit - awesome accommodations. 18th floor. perfect place for sunrise/sunset sightings. good for us, they got the sunrise. mmmm, my favourite.   

five days in kuala lumpur without wasting any minute - haha. and resting is calculated as we needed to get to the next plan as itinerary. ok ok, i wouldn’t go to any details. because we had so much and to put it into writing is going to take a lot of time. i was telling my friend while we were running towards the train, that we did things we were doing in a year, fitting into five days only. that’s when i know i can’t write everything in one post. 

also, i am writing to remind myself of all the good. bad may occur as flight cancellation, passengers complaining, i even heard a black american guy telling other passengers that “manila is a mess" but what’s the worst thing that could happen? we have place to stay in here. it’s just that, it wasn’t the plan and i wouldn’t want to be in any other room but mine. XD you understand, right? ok.

thanks for reading. and i love kl, btw. <3

j

coffee talk | we all make mistakes

kinda admit that this blog will somehow produce some mistake ideas along the way. what? way? which way? way in your disturbed mind.

ok, so i read this book - i am not going to call on because we aren’t close friend yet. but every book i read most are conversely recommended toward friends that are dear to me. most of them have rejected my offer just because i talked about it already and the excitement i gave to them during the promotion is just draining to their hearings. oh well i’m a good story teller. so i change the way i gush about the book i read, with a serious face and a right hand gestures, enough for them to get the surface value of what i am talking about. “hey. this book. it’s good”. a thumbs up and a little wink. “read it.” followed by an executive nod as if you are showing a respect to a president’s presence, should get them hooked. expecting to see them the next day and finally talk about it. “i told you, so.” (i’m not sure if i should put a comma between the word you and so). disclaimer is as important as breakfast.

in all honesty. because of this book i am currently reading, punched me right on the brain on my self-righteous sense of believing about my myself being right at something. i was wrong. and to pass this bad feelings you are wrong, too. and them. and all of us.

here’s the thing, if i write a hundreds of blogs and nobody ever tried to read it(which is why i keep writing) and to others, this idea of writing a blog without the reader, just didn’t make sense because what for is the blog without a reader? first of all, why do they even care if i don’t have a reader. i have one reader and critic. and that is me (the supportive side of me).

so i’m gonna talk about making mistakes. 

i failed at something and it was my mistake. but what is the other option? own it. learn from it. and learning from it doesn’t necessarily make you do the right thing. it will only lead you to do less mistake. and lesser and lesser(and i haven’t done it right so, i am not going to conclude yet). 

the truth is, everybody make mistakes, everybody lies, everybody cheated on someone or some test(i did it once, when the proctor went out, and i glanced on google. it was his fault). somewhere along a friendship or a relationship or a familyship(really?) had accused someone mistakenly because they thought they’re right. no. actually they only have right to feel accusing somebody(for emotional purposes) but actually, the accusation was all wrong, they’re just being subjective(unless the proof was practically proven).

as simple as this title goes. we all make mistakes. and if you don’t make mistakes, YOU ARE NOT HUMAN. if you disagree. then there you go, you just made your first mistake.

learn!

Daily Blog Challenge | Day 12 | friday love day

march 4, 2016. friday. holy day. normally, you have that feeling of making the day special. that's just within us. muslims. friday is always a blessed day. it is as if, you have given a chance. a chance to reflect. to begin again. repent. and start fresh.

i had my morning coffee. alhamdulillah. it's a great great day. tried to finish up this blog but failed to do so. that's why i'm writing it today. and it's saturday night. and honestly, i really don't like this procrastination. i'm try to subdue this habit of mine. and inshAllah one day, i'll get over it.

around 1000. once again. my favorite part of the day and i guess i'm getting addicted to it. making smoothie. this time it's a carrot.

for lunch. my brilliant roommate cooked a chicken with vegetables and a red rice and fell for it. i loved it.

searched for my plastic mug with straw. ready to filled it up with water. and the big galon is empty. great. i need to phone the water delivery.

done.

gym hour.

went to giant for some groceries. apple. orange. lemon. and i found this green tea i didn't even know what if i'm gonna like it. but the box itself is so interesting and convincing. thank God i bought it.

"never procrastinate"

peace out! xoxo

coffee talk | Changes.

i don’t like writing anymore. i want to record a video and post it. post it. post it. nah! that can’t be.

for some very reasonable reason. It can’t be.

first of all, my purpose in starting this blog is nothing but to share what are my thoughts about. sometimes. because blogging isn’t something easy. because, not everyone is doing it. YES! not everyone is able to do it. well, in my own very humble opinion, maybe i just had this gut. to write. whatever the outcome is. i’m not someone who is grammatically skillful. i even sometimes look up for the right spelling and the right word. yeah. i wanna express it. and it feels good. i feel good. ^_^

talking about my recent activity why i wasn’t that updating my blog. in short. where have i been?!

yeeeey!! the yeey-thing, i call it a “break”. break-freeeee. no, that’s not what i meant. i mean, break. from my busy-ness. and this whole thing inspires me to write this whole blog thing for this topic. i know this sounds so informal, like i’m literary speaking loudly as i type these words. ha!ha!. <-not this one.

i don’t know in some sort of any way, things just change, and because it is something inevitable, and so we sometimes adjust and be ok with it. go with the flow. and rock’n roll. word. Alhamdulillah.

here are some of the list things that I have realize there’s been a changes peps:

• being a freshmen. now a senior. o snap! time passes by, about to graduate from being an i.t. student. about to survive!
• being out-of-place-feeling. now a self-determined. i was always regarded and sometimes called by my country. "hey filipina!”. but behind that is the fact that some of them doesn't really know how to pronounce my name correctly. some of them even says, “hey, how do u compare singapore from this country?”. It always happens. The??! Singapore? Hmm, might want to think about it.
• a novel book fanatic reader(I’ve read few). now i don’t believe in fiction book anymore. period. it started when I found 50-shades-of-grey a violent one. i didn’t even finish it. it disturbed me, i deleted it. it was pdf. one right-click and be gone. just like that.
• i’m a loner. now a brainer. - naw kidding! – now a force to socialize. ha.ha. I don’t like it sometimes. but, in my situation, you just don’t be quiet and let other people decide for you. i’m an-independent-standalone-living-a-life-of-a- human being, so to speak. and by that i missed my parents, whom i used to depend everything on.
• old perceptions into new perceptions. deep. HAHA! but this? Really had changed. hard.
• islamic views. regardless, this is one of the very profound one. and i am so thankful that i started to connect the dots of the things that bothers me before. the light is opening. and inshAllah, it will continue opening. the door might be closed sometimes, but it is with purpose. and it is to understand why is that door closed? the purpose.
• additional lists down here will be continuously updating. changes. :))

if your environment changes you for whatever it may be. good or bad. It has a purpose. you might sometimes realize it. or not at all. 

I’m writing this blog in the name of realization. things will keep changing. and we should have the ability to be patient in order to adjust to the new situation. it’s that word patient that will bring us THERE,

that's it folks. be patient. at all time. atleast, try to.

coffee talk | Do things that matter

how can we make sure that things that we do or want to do really matter?

i am not sure if this is a question or a reminder to me. but all i know is i've got to the point where i am asking myself - is this really matter? am i happy doing it. but does it really counts? is this really going to make me what i want in life? a good hobby doesn't destroy you. but it takes my time passes by. should i stop entertaining sometimes myself and only focus on doing what i should do? or should i do both if i'm able to?

i had thought of this things over and over again. which i have actually wrote a short thoughts about it before in this blog - entitle "thinking is harmful" - you can check it out. it's really really short and thought it could help. or not. no violence.

blogging is the only way i can soothe myself from stressing on what to do during free time. maybe you too. why would i know. ^_^ but if you are reading this blog then probably you have wasted some of your time and energy at things that doesn't matter and you try to redeem it. no we can't. though we can change our future habit by changing our behavior and disciple ourselves if we want to. "WILL IS ALL IT TAKES".

yours,
JS